Let lose

if i lose that one thing, then i don't think there's a point to any of this anymore.

that was what i thought earlier.

i think women should learn how to switch off their unnecessary thoughts. really.

i think we think wayyyyyyyyyyy too much.

probably 100x more than men do.

that's why the saying "men are from Mars and women are from Venus" is true.

sometimes, i wish i was a man. well atleast the part where you think less. we women are too complex. how to make us simpler?

i enjoy laughter. i enjoy happiness. i hate thinking the unnecessary coz that only contributes to sadness.

but the more i try to stop those thoughts, i tend to think even more. which is even worse right. argh. where is the switch off button when i need one?

ok. switched off.

i will be fine. =D

on a lighter note, 2o days!!!!!!!! i can't wait!

*LOVES*

It feels like a bitch fest

i'm feeling pretty bitchy right now. and i'm ready for a downright bitching session.

when i moved into this new flat of mine, i used to wonder why is it constantly warm in this flat eventhough outside temperature is like <15>

and so Nadia and i made a conclusion that probably we've been doing too many sins by bitching/gossiping about people. owhkay. so, i've been toning down a little bit.

the thing is, when you live in Manchester, you meet so many people. and people just tend to piss you off or even make you feel annoyed up to the point where even if that person doesn't do anything wrong to you, his/her presence is enough to drive you up the wall. so yeah FML for having these kinda people around me.

such a contradicting post to the previous one. seriously i love living in Manchester and i'm lucky to be able to study. but there are certain people who i just have to avoid. just so i can prevent myself from bitching about them.

thank you. hehehe. rant over.

but seriously, how i wish to go back to Cambridge where there ain't much bitching going around. argh.

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Pretty amazing!

ever wonder why life is so blessed?

ever wonder how and why you deserve all these blessings coz most of the time you just do shit?

i do wonder at times.

as a Muslim, i'm not perfect. at all.

for my sins and wrongdoings, i don't think i deserve what i have now.

a huge blessing.

yesterday, i had a 2 1/2 hours skype conference with two of my closest friends - Maliq and Batch. and of course Jaja too, tp die tak byk ckp. hope u get well soon dear. skyping with them. made me laugh non stop. that loud high pitch witch cackle that i thought i haven't had for quite sometime.you both brought the worst in me. wth that's the best feeling ever. i love you both. you both are one of the many blessings in my life. =D

and mama called while i was out with friends. complaining about my two cats that constantly fight. another blessing. getting to hear my mother's voice, eventhough she's thousands of miles away from me. she calls me every few days. usually i would forget to ask her to call. but she never forgets. knowing that my family is healthy and safe and all well is a true blessing.

then the best friend sms me this morning when i was still fast asleep. a blessing to hear from her after she's done her exams. and quickly told her that i miss her. and longing to hear updates from her. i miss you, shera.

yeh so i woke up this morning and just wondered. why so blessed?

Alhamdulillah, is all i can say.

maybe one day if Allah wanna take it all away, He can just do it in a second.

so, appreciate. life is beautiful. more than you actually realised.

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Long Gone!

It's been almost 3 months since my last post. sorry guys, guess current life is keeping me way too busy til i have no time to think about updating my blog.

anyways, incase you didn't know, i'm back in my second home, Manchester. good to be back but at the same time uni life is driving me nuts. nuts as it may seem, i'm enjoying my life as well =)

where to start? well... before the start of uni term, my friends and i went for a short trip to Barcelona. i thought the city was amazing. sunshine. perfect weather. a total opposite of UK. spanish men and women. owh so pretty. cuci mata baek punya. anyways, stayed in a cosy little apartment that had 2 bedrooms and 1 sofa bed. just enough for the 5 of us - me, Aina, Diyana, Dan and Alvin. trip was too short for us to explore Barcelona. hope to visit again. coz sure was a sweet sweet memory. =D

then uni started. oh my. 9-5 pm every other day. i thought i was going mad. felt tired all the time but now i'm pretty much used to it. it's already the 9th week fyi. sooooo fast! but hey, i can't wait for Christmas break! ooh ooh breaking news. i've been studying ALMOST everyday now. pretty much proud of myself considering the past 2 years i chose to put other things e.g MSSM as top priority, hence the reason why i only managed to get a borderline 2nd upper class for my 2nd year. nevertheless, i was very much satisfied with my achievement. was actually expecting 2nd lower class, considering the 1 month before exam preparation. not impressed!

good news is i am slowly gaining back my quiet social life, thank God. MSSM is out of the way. as much as i love the freedom, my heart constantly aches for the sorely missed preparation of big events, the committee meetings and basically meeting new people. the annual general meeting was a week ago. and believe it or not, i cried when my president announced that the committee is dissolved. pardon me for the emotional ex vice president, but i think i had the best committee one can ever ask for.. and plus i'm gonna miss all the bitching and gossiping sessions we had everytime we had meetings. we pretty much compliment each other in the committee, and for that i am grateful. no dramas in the committee. mr ex pres Shang Neng sure did an amazing job in leading our committee. three cheers to you! my beautiful sweet girls - Shwu Wei, Fion, Jacqueline, Sue Jinn, Yee You, Lay Pin and Pearl - u girls are like sisters to me eventhough you enjoy calling me mummy. i love you. the boys - Gray, Syaz, Lucas and Tian Ji.. so few of you but we definitely bonded well. gonna miss the jokes and laughter with y'all. =)

and now i have quite a regular daily routine. wake up. shower. go to class. come back from class. nap. tv series. cook. eat. gossip session with Nadia or Dan or sometimes both of them, and sometimes Khairi will join in too. revise. sleep. then some days will go out with a couple of friends, just chill at a shisha cafe or dinner.

i like how it is now.

The apple of my eye

incase you haven't met these two little sweethearts, the one with the brown and white coat is Molly and the one with grey and white coat is Nemo. Molly belongs to my sis, Ratih and Nemo is Haimi's. Nemo just started to stay with us permanently and we have been bff ever since. Molly on the other hand is very bitchy to me, which is why she's constantly being bullied by me.

i love both equally but Nemo is the only one who can put up with me who likes to cuddle, kiss and hug cats. hehehhe.

2 weeks and i'm leaving them. this is heartbreaking =(

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The Women

at times, your head feels like arghhh and men just keep giving you headache.

then this what you do.

call up a bunch of girlfriends.

and just have a proper girls night out.

no.

not clubbing.

just a 4-hour dinner.

just spill out the crap you're going through and

voila... problem solved!

me. aina. hayat. amenie.

four girls.

each has different problems.

all men related.

rather than crying over a spilled milk, we ended up laughing non stop.

sampai nak pecah perut.

fyi i don't hate men. but the things some of them do, it's pretty despicable.

but yeh women nowadays are equally disgusting.

hmm.. whatever.

people keep on asking why am i single.

ko ingat senang2 ke aku nak kutip laki tepi jalan.da la bkn senang nak dpt yg baik2.

after dinner with the girls, we made a conclusion.

as far as i'm concern, i'm no longer worried about not having a guy in my life.

coz i'm pretty much contented with what i have now.

the friends that i can laugh and cry with.

the howling laughters of us 4 girls. epic.

atap2 semua boleh tercabut. =)

*LOVES*

3 weeks

been M.I.A.ing. truth is, not even bothered to open my blog til today.

summer has been incredibly relaxing.

too bad it will end in three weeks time. boohoo!

whatever it is, reality check. i'm a third year student now.

how time flies.

unlike the other third years,this won't be my final year. why?

coz Pharmacy is a four year course. hehehe. 2 more years and i will graduate.

Insya Allah.

i do wonder at times how life can fastforward without us realising.

and how people can change in a split second.

and how love can turn into hate.

and how friendship grows into a relationship.

just with a blink of the eye.

btw, it is fasting month. 12 more days to go. i love Ramadhan. really i do. everyone just seems so calm and patient during this month. lol. but i miss being able to eat a lot. now my appetite decreased and my only worry is that i will lose weight. thankfully, i'm still maintaining 57kg. wheeheee. i'm trying to reach 60kg. doubt it will happen with my hectic lifestyle in Manchester. no way.

i have started being busy with MSSM again. freshers are coming this September and cant wait!! preparation for freshers' week! events coming up. need to scout for potential successor. it's been a long way already. my committee and i are way too exhausted and we're just waiting mid November to step down. 1 year of taking up this responsibility has taught me enough.

3rd year will be all about focusing on studies. not gonna be a total geek, but hoping there will be a consistency in revision. i'd still wanna have fun every now and then. and lets hope for no drama involving me, shall we? i love watching other people's dramas, but not mine.

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