owh hello 3rd year MPHARM!!

finally!!!

results were out last night and i got 2nd upper class for my 2nd year!

Alhamdulillah.

ok. maybe not as impressive as getting first class. but making it to 3rd year is already enough for me. i mean given the fact that i was busy with many other things besides my studies and just 1 month to study before the exams, i think i did better than i expected.

so yessss!!! i was worried sick for the whole day. i knew that i was going to get the results yesterday so i kept on checking my uni email every hour to see if they sent any notifications regarding the results. lol. how anxious.

so now i can enjoy my summer with no worries. and yes raya in Malaysia again! yay! my flight back to UK will be on 18th September!

i never got the chance to ask my classmates about their results. don't want to be the kepo one asking around. hope everyone did well. if not, resit in August isn't so bad. really. i was already thinking what if i had to resit. hmm.. resit is a 2nd chance. not a death sentence. so best embrace it and make the best out of it.

i wonder what 3rd year would be like?

will it be better or worse than my 2nd year?

hmmmmmm....

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As for current updates, nothing much. just normal routine - work, come home, eat, World cup, sleep. haven't been going out much. everyone's just busy with their own thing.

*LOVES*

Of Caffeine and World Cup

last night, i had like a rush of adrenaline or something like that... so i couldn't sleep til 3am. wtf. after watching italy's disappointing match. actually my bad. coz i took a 3-hour afternoon nap. so yeahhh.

then this morning i had to go to work at 8.15am. fml.
i was dying half way feeling really sleepy. thankfully, i didn't have to prepare medicines for patients today, instead we had a friggin induction.and it's like a whole day thing. so annoying.

thank God. they served coffee for breakfast. i even had teh tarik before i went to work. then for lunch, i had teh ais. ok. this was seriously an overdose of caffeine.

the result - i got a little bit more hyper than usual and couldn't sleep til now. i expected to doze off like right after i came back at 5pm. but nooooo... too much energy. need to channel it somewhere. so watched world cup. portugal vs north korea. portugal scored 7 goals and my baby Ronaldo did too so i jumped and danced around like a mad bitch everytime they scored. hehehe.

i know. i'm channelling my energy to this post. zzzzzzzzzzzzz...

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anyways, on a different note, as much as i miss Manchester, i'm adapting to my life here. true i don't get to go out at night and without parents' consent. true i have to work and come back feeling tired most of the time. true i stay at home a lot more than i did when i was in Manchester. but hey.. i love it. really i do. and everything's compensated by going out for pigging out on the heavenly malaysian food. spending time with family and friends that you don't get to be with in UK is just priceless. so i'm not complaining. hehehe. and working. is just. awesome. so busy. it ain't like working in the clinic last time. working in clinic is like going on a holiday compared to working in hospital. but it's a good exposure. and damnnn there are loads of medicines. but there are a number of popular medicines there like Zithromax, Arcoxia, Celebrex, Diamicron, Clarinase. lol. the list goes on and on. but the only thing i dislike about SMC is the rule stating staff and practical students are not allowed to dye their hair. what is this? school? hell no am i gonna dye hair back to it's original colour!!

ok rant over. i can hear wedding bells!!! sis is getting married!! but feel as thought they've married for years. really.
now... i feel like wanna get married. hahahahah

*LOVES*

owh myyyy owh myyy

i'm homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

so happy yet somehow feel something missing!

owh yes. my friends in Manchester.

i just realise how much i miss them.

when we said our goodbyes at Aunty Azimah's BBQ, i had to fight back those tears from coming out!!

owhh well. what to do.

you can't have everyone you love in one place. that's impossible.

anyways, i touched down on Sunday night.

so happy to see my mom, dad, sisters and cat! my bro is still in KTJ. hmm.

next day, my subang gang already called me out. i'm truly blessed to have such friends.

i don't know how some people can ditch their old friends when they have new ones.

old friends are the ones you grow up with. true that we may grow up differently and be at different places, but the memories with old friends are irreplaceable. =)

today was the first day of my internship.

thankfully, my colleagues are nice!! semua gile2.

tp ada laa 1 or 2 yg a bit senyap. maybe need sometime to warm up.

phewwwww... 8.30am to 5 pm is very tiring!!

and today is not considered as busy day. but i already felt tired!

lets just hope i'll last til 15th July!

wondering... when is my result coming out? i need to know a.s.a.p!!

can't even book my flight now!

*LOVES*

Harder than expected

sometimes, you get attached to something. and it's hard to leave it.

and it makes you wonder what happens once you leave it.

for the past few days, i've been doing nothing other than packing and spending time with my friends.

i'm very much attached to my life here.

am i ready to leave this behind?

don't get me wrong, i'm really really excited to go back home and see my family and friends.

but leaving a life that you've built for the past 9 months ain't that easy.

i tell you what, when i'm back in Malaysia, my life changes 180 degrees.

no kidding.

no hectic-ness. no uni. no books. no public transport. no major responsibility. no partying.

for the 1st month, i'll be busy with internship. next two months after that, i'm goin holiday with family and hopefully with my subang gang. and of course, Maliq will be the one constantly bringing me out with our Subang gang. hehehe.

*dunno what happened to our Cherating trip?*

i'm looking forward to:

*my family

*my cat

*Ratih's wedding

*my subang gang

*my ktj gang

*holiday in Krabi

*basically just spend time with my loved ones =)

tell you what i'm gonna miss when i'm back in Malaysia :

*my gang Melayu Manchester

*the Cina gang

*my committee

*MSSM events

*late night dinners and movies

*shisha session

*come home after midnight hahahaha

nahh.. i don't miss the parties. i've gone past that stage. i feel old now and i rather have a chilled night out rather than dancing all night. once in a while is fine but you just get tired of it somehow.

YES. i feel sad to leave.

well, you gotta lose something to gain something right?

last night is tonight.

tomorrow morning, goin to Aunty Azimah's farewell.

will board the plane at night.

i'm missing everyone already. =(

*LOVES*

Life's too short

life's too short.

appreciate what you have now.

you need to wake up in the morning.

look at yourself in the mirror. look outside your window.

smile.

and say Alhamdulillah.

you feel blessed.

optimistic.

positive.

as if nothing could go wrong.

stress is just a challenge.

a life without challenge, is absolutely boring and monotonous.

appreciate your life.

appreciate what you have.

coz life is just too short.

don't go around comparing yourself with other people.

coz what you have, they may not have. vice versa.

but we humans, tend to see what we do not have.

that is when we stop appreciating our lives.

so, it's time to start feeling good bout yourself. bout who you are. bout your life.

*just a little inspiring post for the people that i love*

*LOVES*

PSYCHED!!!!

my body is pumped with adrenaline.

i'm so so so in need for the time to fast forward to Saturday!!

i cant wait to board on that flight and see my family on Sunday night!

anyways, sorry for the late update.

i have officially finished my 2nd year.

whether i have to retake or not, thats totally up to Allah.

i have done the best i can (ok. maybe i could have started my revision earlier but being a busy bee, i couldnt)

anyways, the last paper was OK for me. i think i could atleast scrape a pass but my coursemates said that they're gonna fail that one.

i'm just gonna stay positive.

as soon as i get my exam result, i will post up a so called reflective post to reflect on my 2nd year.

but let me just say, 2nd year has been the bomb!! the best year so far since i came to UK. really. i do. i even enjoyed all those dramas i was in... NOT!

minus the dramas, it's been awesome. i love it. and i'm sad that i have to go to 3rd year = more stress with studies!!!!!!!!!

after-exam weekend was amazing. ran here n there. watched football match. spent time with friends. i can never ask for anything better than this.

i hate leaving UK coz i know i will miss good ol Manchester + the friends i have here!!!!!! sorry. sounds so attached. but how can i not?

whatever it is i wanna get my results a.s.a.p!!

so that i can stop telling myself that i wont fail when i have that gut feeling that i didnt do so well especially for Medicine Design 2. arghhh.

anyways, checklist before going back to Malaysia:

-pack

-store my effin stuff

-shopping

-hang out with friends (sex and the city 2nd round)

-Aunty Azimah's farewell

at times being heartless is the way to go.

but it's for our own good.

maybe the positive outcome is not instant.

soon. or maybe later. you'll realise.

every shit you go through is a blessing in disguise.

treat it as something that will make you stronger.

then, you will find that happiness that you've been searching for.

*LOVES*

Allahyarham Haji Abdul Malik bin Haji Arshad

time flies.

i've just finished my 2nd last paper.

Alhamdulillah it was better than i'd expected.

now i'm just waiting for the whole exam period to be totally over.

that would be about 38 hours from NOW.

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on a different note, Nenek ayah's funeral went extremely well and smooth.

Alhamdulillah. and yesterday i had a long talk with my mom.

she told me a lot about Nenek ayah and his last words.

being a pious man, Nenek ayah was not afraid to die. he welcomed death with open arms. and even when he was "nazak", he could still talk and preach to my mum, her siblings and my cousins.

he said to my mum, "aku taknak satu pun dari keturunan aku membelakangkan agama Allah."

i shall remember that forever.

Insya Allah.

*LOVES*