easter hol officially started today.
crap man. everyone's gone.
my whole gang that i always hang out with are all over the place.
only left me, Alvin n Tony.
Sim, Jin and Anthony are here in Manc.
had dinner with them.
dunno why felt different with them a bit.
no MNite practice til Monday.
i have one assignment to finish but i cant be bothered to do it now.
cepat laaa. nak gi London n Spain on the 4th.
Manchester is dead right now.
*LOVES*
Saturday, 28 March 2009
Friday, 27 March 2009
Girly Chat with My dear Mama
Most Malay men are possessive and overprotective over their gfs and wives.
true or false?
and my answer is............ True.
WHAT DO U THINK?
was having a long chat with my dear Mama about men. heheh. i talk about almost everything with my mama. owh well, it so happened that she asked me how was Liverpool.. ada laki yang Annis berkenan ke... lalala... mama sibuk gle. but i like.
i'm not gonna say what i said to my mama. that's private. but somehow we talked about Malay, Chinese and White men. i told ma, if i were to get a Malay man in the future, i don't think he can put up with my lifestyle and personality. for example, i remember my ex when i was form 3.. he was friggin pissed off with me coz i was loud with my friends at Jaja's open house. i was like wtf. by then u should know me coz that time we were together for 6 months. godddddddddddd...
ok. i'm loud and love to just go out day and night with my friends. i'm no perempuan melayu terakhir please. i don't cover my mouth when i laugh. i'm not a very softspoken person. i'm open and can absolutely talk shit with my friends like 24/7 (that was what my friends n i did in zaim's place in Liverpool). and i don't give a fuck when people wanna criticise how loud i am. that's just me. i won't change myself just to impress a guy.
so yeh.. that's wat i told my mama and she agrees. then she asked, "yg ex awk yg cina tu camne plak?"
owh well i think that was a different case coz he kinda knew me very well then and just had to accept whatever shit i did that he might not even like.
then mama said.. "hmm.. takpe laa.. i think ur break up was a blessing in disguise. die clingy sgt ngan family die. dulu blk msia slalu ngan family je, tak ngan friends ke ape.. pape decision nanti mesti the final decision family die yg buat. one way or another, his gf/wife will always be 2nd to him. chinese families mmg cam tu".
TRUE OR FALSE??
seems very true to me. not talking bout him alone. but Chinese guys in general. i think it's just their culture.
then mama said, "klau compared to Chinese, org putih lagi senang nak convert kot. coz they're more open and they make their own decision". then i said "hmm tapi maa.. byk org putih nak benda tu je la.. susah nak cari yg baik2." ma kata, "tak semua. ada yg baik2.. yg mcm nerd ke". hmm.. nerd tu harus ke, ma?
kesimpulannya ialah.. mak saya nak saya cari bf org putih. ma ckp mcm senang je. adoiii.. takpe la ma. when the time comes, the right man will appear. although.. sometimes i do feel like i want a bf now.. but nahhhh.. thinking about the fun that i'm having now, i prefer no strings attached. i enjoy my freedom and i can't deal with restrictions. unless if that guy can accept me for who i am, then.. maybe.
blab much? i think i did. sorry for wasting ur time. =P
*LOVES*
true or false?
and my answer is............ True.
WHAT DO U THINK?
was having a long chat with my dear Mama about men. heheh. i talk about almost everything with my mama. owh well, it so happened that she asked me how was Liverpool.. ada laki yang Annis berkenan ke... lalala... mama sibuk gle. but i like.
i'm not gonna say what i said to my mama. that's private. but somehow we talked about Malay, Chinese and White men. i told ma, if i were to get a Malay man in the future, i don't think he can put up with my lifestyle and personality. for example, i remember my ex when i was form 3.. he was friggin pissed off with me coz i was loud with my friends at Jaja's open house. i was like wtf. by then u should know me coz that time we were together for 6 months. godddddddddddd...
ok. i'm loud and love to just go out day and night with my friends. i'm no perempuan melayu terakhir please. i don't cover my mouth when i laugh. i'm not a very softspoken person. i'm open and can absolutely talk shit with my friends like 24/7 (that was what my friends n i did in zaim's place in Liverpool). and i don't give a fuck when people wanna criticise how loud i am. that's just me. i won't change myself just to impress a guy.
so yeh.. that's wat i told my mama and she agrees. then she asked, "yg ex awk yg cina tu camne plak?"
owh well i think that was a different case coz he kinda knew me very well then and just had to accept whatever shit i did that he might not even like.
then mama said.. "hmm.. takpe laa.. i think ur break up was a blessing in disguise. die clingy sgt ngan family die. dulu blk msia slalu ngan family je, tak ngan friends ke ape.. pape decision nanti mesti the final decision family die yg buat. one way or another, his gf/wife will always be 2nd to him. chinese families mmg cam tu".
TRUE OR FALSE??
seems very true to me. not talking bout him alone. but Chinese guys in general. i think it's just their culture.
then mama said, "klau compared to Chinese, org putih lagi senang nak convert kot. coz they're more open and they make their own decision". then i said "hmm tapi maa.. byk org putih nak benda tu je la.. susah nak cari yg baik2." ma kata, "tak semua. ada yg baik2.. yg mcm nerd ke". hmm.. nerd tu harus ke, ma?
kesimpulannya ialah.. mak saya nak saya cari bf org putih. ma ckp mcm senang je. adoiii.. takpe la ma. when the time comes, the right man will appear. although.. sometimes i do feel like i want a bf now.. but nahhhh.. thinking about the fun that i'm having now, i prefer no strings attached. i enjoy my freedom and i can't deal with restrictions. unless if that guy can accept me for who i am, then.. maybe.
blab much? i think i did. sorry for wasting ur time. =P
*LOVES*
Wednesday, 25 March 2009
Manchester Malaysian Night presents.... Colourblind
this is it people.
the highlight of my first year in Manchester. 600 tickets expected to be sold for this event. i'm fucked up now.
btw, was in Liverpool from yesterday til this afternoon.
suppose to go back to Manch right after the Liverpool MNite after party.
but decided to stay a bit longer.
stayed at Zaim's place. there were friggin 6 of us crashed into his tiny lil room.
didnt even sleep properly. talked+gossip til 6am and only slept til bout 9ish.
was half dead when i reached Manch.
*LOVES*
Sunday, 22 March 2009
My bro turning into a sportsman
this pic was taken exactly a year ago when we went to Paris.Lil Bro hates taking pics.
forgot to update bout my lil bro and his moments of fame after winning 6 friggin medals when he participated in FOBISSEA (kinda like asian games but for secondary school kids). yeh.. that FOBISSEA was held in Penang and my parents went to watch. Papa was ever so proud of him. talked to both Mama and Papa yesterday.
2 golds, 3 silvers and 1 bronze.
fucking hell my lil bro is amazing. am so proud of him. i know my lil bro is a bit of the kiasu type and poyo but i love him to bits. i was never the athletic one at school. i'm only ok at netball. that's it. i was more of a geek at school. hehe.
so Qahl, ur gonna be ever so famous at KTJ and all girls will be wanting u. lol. i'm exaggerating. hehe.
I can't resist spending
i'm bad at saving my money these days.
i love going out for food with my mates, and the next thing i know i had spent a lil bit too much for this week.
so yesterday, i went to the city centre and bought a summer dress from H&M. i dont really mind about that coz i havent shopped for ages and i love that dress. it's like those dresses that u wear to the beach and it was only 13 pounds. so yeh.
then.... went to have lunch at Rice. 5 pounds. that's ok for the portion i ate.
went back to my flat and chill.
later on at 6, went down to Rusholme to have my weekly dose of Honeycomb and Cookies&Cream milkshake.. and not forgetting Jazera. 4 pounds in total (coz i shared the food with Fran).
after that, went to the student union for Malaysian Night photoshoot. they need our photos to make a poster and stuff like that.
we finished about 10. and i was sort of hungry, so were the others. so went to Red Chilli. this cost a bomb. 11 pounds.
so yesterday i spent 20 pounds on food. but i say it was worthy. it's a bit too much, i know. so next week i'm gonna cook at home more. haha. as if. we'll see. lucky thing i have my savings but i don't wanna touch that. but now i'm desperate. i guess i just have to.
*LOVES*
i love going out for food with my mates, and the next thing i know i had spent a lil bit too much for this week.
so yesterday, i went to the city centre and bought a summer dress from H&M. i dont really mind about that coz i havent shopped for ages and i love that dress. it's like those dresses that u wear to the beach and it was only 13 pounds. so yeh.
then.... went to have lunch at Rice. 5 pounds. that's ok for the portion i ate.
went back to my flat and chill.
later on at 6, went down to Rusholme to have my weekly dose of Honeycomb and Cookies&Cream milkshake.. and not forgetting Jazera. 4 pounds in total (coz i shared the food with Fran).
after that, went to the student union for Malaysian Night photoshoot. they need our photos to make a poster and stuff like that.
we finished about 10. and i was sort of hungry, so were the others. so went to Red Chilli. this cost a bomb. 11 pounds.
so yesterday i spent 20 pounds on food. but i say it was worthy. it's a bit too much, i know. so next week i'm gonna cook at home more. haha. as if. we'll see. lucky thing i have my savings but i don't wanna touch that. but now i'm desperate. i guess i just have to.
*LOVES*
Friday, 20 March 2009
end of the week, and i'm nearly broke
yeh based on the title above, i'm kinda or sorta broke.
not really. i'm exaggerating. i haven't spent over my budget but i was supposed to save up more for my spain trip so that i can go crazy on shopping. but no, i didnt or should i say, COULDN'T..
it's hard living in uni when every now and then ur friends would just call u up to go for lunch or dinner and u just cant say no. coz the places they go are good. or ur juz too lazy to cook at home.
whats worse, when ur friends ask u to go for a night out and u juz cant seem to say no coz everyone else will be there and u just wanna go to chill n have fun with ur friends.
owh God. i'm not complaining. this is just me. i just enjoy going out with my friends. thats why when i'm back in Malaysia i would just stay at home and chill and don't really mind coz i've been going out too many times here.
the week has been busy. and yet, i'm still breathing easily. practices for MNite have been running smoothly. just need to work on my emotions, facial expressions and be the ultimate drama queen (i'm exaggerating). too many different emotions that i have to portray for my character. but i'm trying my best.
yesterday, after my long friggin day (9 am to 5 pm), went straight to Chorley (Laura's place). we had been planning this for weeks to go to Preston (which is near Chorley) for a night out. but there were only me, Laura and Kate. Rebecca couldn't come. good night out.
MSSM is having a party at Pure tonight but i'm not going. see, i can say no! but only coz my non-drinking friends are not goin so i dont wanna be the only one who will be dancing all night. lol. plus, i'm not doing another 2 nights in a row. done that last week and i say NO!
MNite practice again tonite. 8.30 til 10.30 i suppose (like on Wednesday). owh god.
EBL five page long essay to be done by end of next week.
Liverpool Mnite on Tuesday.
I need to shop. I haven't shopped for this whole month.
go Primark la.
*LOVES*
not really. i'm exaggerating. i haven't spent over my budget but i was supposed to save up more for my spain trip so that i can go crazy on shopping. but no, i didnt or should i say, COULDN'T..
it's hard living in uni when every now and then ur friends would just call u up to go for lunch or dinner and u just cant say no. coz the places they go are good. or ur juz too lazy to cook at home.
whats worse, when ur friends ask u to go for a night out and u juz cant seem to say no coz everyone else will be there and u just wanna go to chill n have fun with ur friends.
owh God. i'm not complaining. this is just me. i just enjoy going out with my friends. thats why when i'm back in Malaysia i would just stay at home and chill and don't really mind coz i've been going out too many times here.
the week has been busy. and yet, i'm still breathing easily. practices for MNite have been running smoothly. just need to work on my emotions, facial expressions and be the ultimate drama queen (i'm exaggerating). too many different emotions that i have to portray for my character. but i'm trying my best.
yesterday, after my long friggin day (9 am to 5 pm), went straight to Chorley (Laura's place). we had been planning this for weeks to go to Preston (which is near Chorley) for a night out. but there were only me, Laura and Kate. Rebecca couldn't come. good night out.
MSSM is having a party at Pure tonight but i'm not going. see, i can say no! but only coz my non-drinking friends are not goin so i dont wanna be the only one who will be dancing all night. lol. plus, i'm not doing another 2 nights in a row. done that last week and i say NO!
MNite practice again tonite. 8.30 til 10.30 i suppose (like on Wednesday). owh god.
EBL five page long essay to be done by end of next week.
Liverpool Mnite on Tuesday.
I need to shop. I haven't shopped for this whole month.
go Primark la.
*LOVES*
Tuesday, 17 March 2009
Hectic, but I like
today, i had my first M Nite practice.
to be honest, i can actually act. i mean for a first timer, i'm not that bad. with a bit more practice, i can actually do well.
maybe coz i watch too many tv series.
anyway, i'm not gonna spoil to y'all bout wat the hell is the play about.
so moving on.
i'm having a very busy week. three effing practicals a week. assignments. studies. Malaysian Nite. my social life.
i was so busy yesterday, that i was practically not in my flat til 1 am.
despite being all hectic, i'm pretty much ok. infact, i don't really mind. can't stay in the flat and just stare at my laptop for hours.
fyi, not motivated to study at all.
maybe gonna start tomorrow coz i have a day off.
I LOVE NATE ARCHIBALD, for now. go figure.
*LOVES*
to be honest, i can actually act. i mean for a first timer, i'm not that bad. with a bit more practice, i can actually do well.
maybe coz i watch too many tv series.
anyway, i'm not gonna spoil to y'all bout wat the hell is the play about.
so moving on.
i'm having a very busy week. three effing practicals a week. assignments. studies. Malaysian Nite. my social life.
i was so busy yesterday, that i was practically not in my flat til 1 am.
- lectures.
- apartment viewing.
- meeting estate agent.
- international 16 meeting.
- dinner at Jazera.
- went to hang out with my mates at a bar in Hilton (yes!) coz Michelle Lim (my KTJ classmate) was here. i swear to God the mocktail there was amazingly awesome!!!
despite being all hectic, i'm pretty much ok. infact, i don't really mind. can't stay in the flat and just stare at my laptop for hours.
fyi, not motivated to study at all.
maybe gonna start tomorrow coz i have a day off.
I LOVE NATE ARCHIBALD, for now. go figure.
*LOVES*
Sunday, 15 March 2009
Owh My Dear Weekend
owh my weekend.
i can't believe i had the strength to wake up today.
for the past two nights,i slept at past 5 am.
i don't always do this.
i feel a bit shitty coz i always sleep at 12 or latest 1 am.
owh well.. i don't have to elaborate much on my weekend.
spent my friday night with my KTJ friends and some others that i know through them. fun. enough said.
went to Naima's party last night. it was good. atleast got to know other Pharmacy students too. music ----> well good but it was just that i had a late night the night before so i was not all out.
woke up today at 11 ish. went to Rice to have lunch then i'm back in my room.
just got the full script of the play. fcuk. starting practices on Tuesday. i'm in shit hole.
last but not least, assignments to be completed soon. i'm guessing i'll be working extra hard for the next couple of weeks.
i just can't wait for my Spain trip in Easter. holla Spanish boys! i'm coming to ur country!!! plus with all the stress from Malaysian Night, i'm sure a short holiday in Spain will be well good for me.
*LOVES*
i can't believe i had the strength to wake up today.
for the past two nights,i slept at past 5 am.
i don't always do this.
i feel a bit shitty coz i always sleep at 12 or latest 1 am.
owh well.. i don't have to elaborate much on my weekend.
spent my friday night with my KTJ friends and some others that i know through them. fun. enough said.
went to Naima's party last night. it was good. atleast got to know other Pharmacy students too. music ----> well good but it was just that i had a late night the night before so i was not all out.
woke up today at 11 ish. went to Rice to have lunch then i'm back in my room.
just got the full script of the play. fcuk. starting practices on Tuesday. i'm in shit hole.
last but not least, assignments to be completed soon. i'm guessing i'll be working extra hard for the next couple of weeks.
i just can't wait for my Spain trip in Easter. holla Spanish boys! i'm coming to ur country!!! plus with all the stress from Malaysian Night, i'm sure a short holiday in Spain will be well good for me.
*LOVES*
Friday, 13 March 2009
Busy here and there and everywhere
according to Chia Hsien, i'm confirmed as one of the main characters for Malaysian night.
i actually thought i didn't get the role coz Alex promised to call me on Tuesday night to confirm with me. when i texted him, he didn't reply. then i texted Chia Hsienlast night and he replied like a few seconds later.
omg omg omg. i'm terrified. really i am. i'm in deep shit. haihh.
they haven't called or whatsoever for practices. seriously, the night is about a month away and we haven't even started practising. i really wanna back out now coz i'm expecting a disastrous night. choi. not that i asked for it. but this should be planned atleast 2 months ago. and now they're all goin mad not getting enough dancers lallala..
supposed to spend the weekend with my dearest Haziqah Aliah Muztaza. but i told her i might not come coz of the practices. but no practices pon. haih. but then today and tomorrow and Sunday... all kinds of plans just came up for this weekend. and my assignments just started to pile up. and i have to finish em all before easter commences. fuck. so i've started bit by bit this week and hopefully can finish in 2 weeks time.
My dear Qaqa,
i'll make it up to u one day and we can spend a girly day just the two of us.
Miss u loads and loads to infinity. =)
I havent seen Iqa for what it seems like ages. last time was when i was in London. =(
i actually thought i didn't get the role coz Alex promised to call me on Tuesday night to confirm with me. when i texted him, he didn't reply. then i texted Chia Hsienlast night and he replied like a few seconds later.
omg omg omg. i'm terrified. really i am. i'm in deep shit. haihh.
they haven't called or whatsoever for practices. seriously, the night is about a month away and we haven't even started practising. i really wanna back out now coz i'm expecting a disastrous night. choi. not that i asked for it. but this should be planned atleast 2 months ago. and now they're all goin mad not getting enough dancers lallala..
supposed to spend the weekend with my dearest Haziqah Aliah Muztaza. but i told her i might not come coz of the practices. but no practices pon. haih. but then today and tomorrow and Sunday... all kinds of plans just came up for this weekend. and my assignments just started to pile up. and i have to finish em all before easter commences. fuck. so i've started bit by bit this week and hopefully can finish in 2 weeks time.
My dear Qaqa,
i'll make it up to u one day and we can spend a girly day just the two of us.
Miss u loads and loads to infinity. =)
I havent seen Iqa for what it seems like ages. last time was when i was in London. =(
- some of my friends are coming tonight.
- tomorrow afternoon i have to attend indonesian night. didi bought the tix alredi.
- tomorrow night is Naima's birthday party. promised her to come when she asked me last week during the Pharmacy Ball. staying over at Fran's after that.
- Sunday, might be goin to Trafford Centre. nak teman Izzah beli sunnies.
but i might skip Sunday if i think i'm too tired.
i'm not looking forward to Malaysian Night practices.
*LOVES*
i'm not looking forward to Malaysian Night practices.
*LOVES*
Tuesday, 10 March 2009
Maybe false alarm? lol
so about this malaysian night thing... i may not be one of the main characters. heheh. apparently they had another audition yesterday (which i couldn't go) and there was another Malay girl that suited the role as Aishah (the role that they wanted me to be)... so... it's between me and that girl now. i have no idea who she is coz Alex (my president) couldn't remember her name. this is one of the things where i don't mind if i don't get the role and if i do get it, i'd just go for it. so we'll see. one way or another, i'll still be part of the malaysian night. only if i don't get the role, i won't be as busy (which is a plus for me), coz... Alex said that when the night is nearer (say a week or two), i'll get only 5 hours of sleep a day. u people know that i need 7 to 8 hours of sleep a day. but like Aina said, it's not everyday u do this kinda stuff. so... i dont know man...
today we had another audition to assign the main characters. the other girl did not come so, only me, a Chinese girl, and an Indian girl were there.. apparently in the play, there has to be one Malay girl and one Chinese or Indian girl. so yeah.. we did a bit of acting based on the script so.. Alex said he'll contact us tonight when they have decided.
omg. forget about malaysian night. i know where i can bring u people to have milkshake here!!! well i've heard of this place for ages but it's in friggin Rusholme and i dont go there at night coz there are just many of these "Bangsa2 Bersatu" people. that's what my friends and i call the people from Middle East and South Asian coutries here. diorg ni pelik dan suka buat hal mcm Rusholme tu bapak diorgnye. menyampah aku. anyway, the cafe i'm talking about is Moonlight. it serves ice cream, milkshakes and faluda and some other stuff that those kinda people have for desserts. anyway, before that, i fulfilled my weekly ritual at Jazera. my weekly rituals are having meals at Red Chilli, Rice and Jazera. hehhe. so yeh. ok. i'm done. gonna do work.
*LOVES*
today we had another audition to assign the main characters. the other girl did not come so, only me, a Chinese girl, and an Indian girl were there.. apparently in the play, there has to be one Malay girl and one Chinese or Indian girl. so yeah.. we did a bit of acting based on the script so.. Alex said he'll contact us tonight when they have decided.
omg. forget about malaysian night. i know where i can bring u people to have milkshake here!!! well i've heard of this place for ages but it's in friggin Rusholme and i dont go there at night coz there are just many of these "Bangsa2 Bersatu" people. that's what my friends and i call the people from Middle East and South Asian coutries here. diorg ni pelik dan suka buat hal mcm Rusholme tu bapak diorgnye. menyampah aku. anyway, the cafe i'm talking about is Moonlight. it serves ice cream, milkshakes and faluda and some other stuff that those kinda people have for desserts. anyway, before that, i fulfilled my weekly ritual at Jazera. my weekly rituals are having meals at Red Chilli, Rice and Jazera. hehhe. so yeh. ok. i'm done. gonna do work.
*LOVES*
Monday, 9 March 2009
A little bit too much, don't you think?
i do bitch a lot.
but it's different when bitching about people that u know than bitching about people that u live with.
this bitching has been going on in my flat for quite sometime and it's getting worse just recently.
i love my flatmates to bits.
they have been honest with each other and if there's any misunderstanding, they'll sort it out between themselves.
but what annoys me is, when they've sorted it out, they still talk about it behind each other's backs. i'm not comfortable with that. coz i'm always the one listening to them bitching about each other. and it's like keeping secrets for each of them. living with them and seeing them each day makes it harder for me to just listen to them bitching.
owh well, i've tried to stay out of trouble and just shut up about it.
this bitching involves them, not me. so whatever.
ok now i'm gonna talk a bit about my clubbing habit.
yes, i have been clubbing quite a lot recently, up to a point where Aina had to tell me off, not coz she's not happy with me going to clubs, but coz of what she thinks people might think of me.
i'm well aware of what people might be saying behind my back.
"eh annis tu da jd wild laa kat uk.. slalu gi clubbing"
"entah2 annis da start minum since die slalu gi clubbing"
i've got two words for the people who ever said or thought like this. PISS OFF!! my clubbing nights have been purely about dancing to good music, and of course having a good time with friends. thats it. susah2. people can be so judgmental.
yes, maybe i should cut down on my clubbing nights. but for this month, i can't avoid them. like last week, i went with my flatmates coz we had never gone clubbing together. this weekend is my friend's birthday and she's having a party at a club. and next week,Kathryn and i are going to Laura's place and we've planned for a night out at her town weeks ago.
i guess it's just uni life here that people don't seem to understand.
i don't know why i even bother explaining.
*LOVES*
but it's different when bitching about people that u know than bitching about people that u live with.
this bitching has been going on in my flat for quite sometime and it's getting worse just recently.
i love my flatmates to bits.
they have been honest with each other and if there's any misunderstanding, they'll sort it out between themselves.
but what annoys me is, when they've sorted it out, they still talk about it behind each other's backs. i'm not comfortable with that. coz i'm always the one listening to them bitching about each other. and it's like keeping secrets for each of them. living with them and seeing them each day makes it harder for me to just listen to them bitching.
owh well, i've tried to stay out of trouble and just shut up about it.
this bitching involves them, not me. so whatever.
ok now i'm gonna talk a bit about my clubbing habit.
yes, i have been clubbing quite a lot recently, up to a point where Aina had to tell me off, not coz she's not happy with me going to clubs, but coz of what she thinks people might think of me.
i'm well aware of what people might be saying behind my back.
"eh annis tu da jd wild laa kat uk.. slalu gi clubbing"
"entah2 annis da start minum since die slalu gi clubbing"
i've got two words for the people who ever said or thought like this. PISS OFF!! my clubbing nights have been purely about dancing to good music, and of course having a good time with friends. thats it. susah2. people can be so judgmental.
yes, maybe i should cut down on my clubbing nights. but for this month, i can't avoid them. like last week, i went with my flatmates coz we had never gone clubbing together. this weekend is my friend's birthday and she's having a party at a club. and next week,Kathryn and i are going to Laura's place and we've planned for a night out at her town weeks ago.
i guess it's just uni life here that people don't seem to understand.
i don't know why i even bother explaining.
*LOVES*
Sunday, 8 March 2009
Gain Weight?
i want to gain weight.
i've been wanting to gain weight for te past 19 years.
what should i do?
i've tried everything - makan tido, tak exercise, makan byk2 makanan berlemak, appeton weight gain... u name it. i've done it all.
i feel skinny when i look at my pics from the ball. damn.
owh well.. people said i should be happy coz people would kill to have my metabolism.
but why can't my metabolism rate be a bit lower so that i can gain weight and look healthy and not having people to think that i have eating disorder? pfft.
*LOVES*
i've been wanting to gain weight for te past 19 years.
what should i do?
i've tried everything - makan tido, tak exercise, makan byk2 makanan berlemak, appeton weight gain... u name it. i've done it all.
i feel skinny when i look at my pics from the ball. damn.
owh well.. people said i should be happy coz people would kill to have my metabolism.
but why can't my metabolism rate be a bit lower so that i can gain weight and look healthy and not having people to think that i have eating disorder? pfft.
*LOVES*
You What??
i had my Pharmacy Ball last night. it was good actually. it's just that i don't know many people at the ball. most of them were 4th year. i think for my year, there were about 50 of us who attended. which was ok, compared to the 2nd year, where only 6th of them turned up. the theme was Casino Royale, so there were blackjack, roulette tables. played blackjack for 1 hour. yes, i did. they gave us fake money to buy the chips. now i know why some of my friends cannot stop gambling. even though i wasnt playing with real money, i could feel the addictiveness when playing. lol. i miss proms i had in Malaysia. at the proms i attended, i know atleast more than half of the people in the ballroom. but this ball.. haihh.. i only know a handful. pfft. anyway, slept over at Francesca's place. went back to her place at 1.30. slept at 2.30 and woke up at 10.30am. felt like crap coz slept quite a lot.
had lunch with my two close friends from college, Karina and Didi. as i told u, i have cut my ex off my life completely by deleting him off Facebook and MSN. but i guess as long as i have friends in common with him, i still get news from my friends about him. not that i asked about him. but Karina was being very expressive today and she was completely bitching about him to me. seriously, i've never seen her really pissed off about someone before. she kept on calling him Bajingan, which i know Indos won't use that word unless it really applies to that particular person. and so Karina told me that he has been advertising his relationship on Facebook and MSN. his status kept on changing, trying to tell the whole world how much he loves his new gf. i said to them, "owh he never did that when we were together." Karina said "is he trying to make u jealous?" and i said, "yeah.. how am i suppose to be jealous when i cant even read what he's posted." according to Karina, he has only hmmm.. Pamela to tell everything coz apparently she understands the reason why he did what he did to me. losing ur friends aren't u? well i believe in God and the things that He can do in a split second, so..
Bajingan, i will just leave it to God to "reward" u for all the shit u've done to me.
Aina told me not to hold grudge against him. i'm not. but like i said, i believe in the things God can do.
*LOVES*
Saturday, 7 March 2009
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm in a deep shit.
yesterday, i went to the Malaysian Night audition. well.. i was thinking, i don't really fancy dancing on that night. and tarian melayu? my god. yesterday tried traditional dance. omg omg. tangan keras cam kayu, camne nak buat tarian melayu. pfft. so just tried out for the acting. there were only 7 of us who tried out for acting. kesian ok. da laa the VP of MSSM is my KTJ senior and i know most of the committee members.
so.. Chia Hsien divided us to 2 groups and gave us a scene. for my group, the scene is in a hotel. so.. i'm good at being bitchy, so i acted as a bitchy receptionist yang kena layan a bitchy customer. they all liked the acting. and so the deep shit is, the committee members appointed me as the lead actress. FUCKIN HELLLLLLL!!! i have no experience or whatsoever in acting. and acting bitchy was easy for me. but what if i have to act as miss goody two shoes or sad or angry?????? owhh god. Malaysian Night is such a big event here, so if anything goes wrong, i'll be blamed. owh dear.. the responsibilities. had cut short my holiday to only 8 days. damn. to back out from this Malaysian Night, is such a shame. so.. i'll give it a shot and maybe when we start the practices i may not be good enough for the role so maybe they will change my character? i wish...
then after the audition went to Red Chilli with Eric, Alvin and Tony, then later joined by Azri. good food. hell yeh. oooh.. then we went to play mahjong. haihh.. kawan ngan cha ya nun alif, so blaja laa main mahjong. i learned to play it like last year, when one of the weekends we were bored stiff and decided to spend 4 hours playing mahjong. last night played til 2.30 am. so go figure. i was knackered as hell. Azri learned to play as well. fun!
i'll be having a really busy month once the practices for Malaysian Night start. loads of commitment. but it's a challenge. and i wanna try something new. so my friends in the UK, please come to Manchester Malaysian Night on the 18th April. =)
*LOVES*
yesterday, i went to the Malaysian Night audition. well.. i was thinking, i don't really fancy dancing on that night. and tarian melayu? my god. yesterday tried traditional dance. omg omg. tangan keras cam kayu, camne nak buat tarian melayu. pfft. so just tried out for the acting. there were only 7 of us who tried out for acting. kesian ok. da laa the VP of MSSM is my KTJ senior and i know most of the committee members.
so.. Chia Hsien divided us to 2 groups and gave us a scene. for my group, the scene is in a hotel. so.. i'm good at being bitchy, so i acted as a bitchy receptionist yang kena layan a bitchy customer. they all liked the acting. and so the deep shit is, the committee members appointed me as the lead actress. FUCKIN HELLLLLLL!!! i have no experience or whatsoever in acting. and acting bitchy was easy for me. but what if i have to act as miss goody two shoes or sad or angry?????? owhh god. Malaysian Night is such a big event here, so if anything goes wrong, i'll be blamed. owh dear.. the responsibilities. had cut short my holiday to only 8 days. damn. to back out from this Malaysian Night, is such a shame. so.. i'll give it a shot and maybe when we start the practices i may not be good enough for the role so maybe they will change my character? i wish...
then after the audition went to Red Chilli with Eric, Alvin and Tony, then later joined by Azri. good food. hell yeh. oooh.. then we went to play mahjong. haihh.. kawan ngan cha ya nun alif, so blaja laa main mahjong. i learned to play it like last year, when one of the weekends we were bored stiff and decided to spend 4 hours playing mahjong. last night played til 2.30 am. so go figure. i was knackered as hell. Azri learned to play as well. fun!
i'll be having a really busy month once the practices for Malaysian Night start. loads of commitment. but it's a challenge. and i wanna try something new. so my friends in the UK, please come to Manchester Malaysian Night on the 18th April. =)
*LOVES*
Thursday, 5 March 2009
Just Another Week
haven't done anything exciting this week.
Monday night - went out with my flatmates, Laura and Kathryn to Tiger Tiger (pics are up on Facebook). it was quite good, but i think i had more fun on Thursday night at Pure. maybe coz the songs were better there and had a big dance floor to move around easily. lol.
i had a meeting with my tutor on Wednesday and she told me what ranking did i get for my first semester exam. out of about 180 1st year Pharmacy students, i'm number 41. which i think was ok. i could have done better but considering the fact that i got 71% for my average and exactly 10 days of proper studying before exam, i'm quite happy with what i got. and my tutor was well pleased with me. =)
looking back at my first semester, it was purely about settling down at uni, meeting people and just getting my assignments done on time. throughout the first semester, i didn't study consistently. i would only study when i had tests. i didn't pay attention in lectures coz i was having a hard time getting used to them. lectures are definitely different than the normal classes we had in college/high skool. i'm gonna change. i'm quite motivated to start studying anytime soon for my exams in May/June.
today i had lunch with Izzah. i am going to stay with her next year in a 2 bedroom apartment. went to an agent to see if they can help us find some nice ones, but the guy who talked to us said there aren't any available apartments now, and so, we have to wait till May or June. he will be keeping in touch i think. worse come to worse, i'll just stay in any of the student halls here.
Azri and Arif will be coming to Manchester tomorrow. might be having dinner with them.
Saturday is my Pharmacy Ball. i'm excited to get all dressed up.
i may not only be the choreographer for Malaysian Night, but MAYBE i'll also be one of the dancers or actresses. we'll see.
*LOVES*
Monday night - went out with my flatmates, Laura and Kathryn to Tiger Tiger (pics are up on Facebook). it was quite good, but i think i had more fun on Thursday night at Pure. maybe coz the songs were better there and had a big dance floor to move around easily. lol.
i had a meeting with my tutor on Wednesday and she told me what ranking did i get for my first semester exam. out of about 180 1st year Pharmacy students, i'm number 41. which i think was ok. i could have done better but considering the fact that i got 71% for my average and exactly 10 days of proper studying before exam, i'm quite happy with what i got. and my tutor was well pleased with me. =)
looking back at my first semester, it was purely about settling down at uni, meeting people and just getting my assignments done on time. throughout the first semester, i didn't study consistently. i would only study when i had tests. i didn't pay attention in lectures coz i was having a hard time getting used to them. lectures are definitely different than the normal classes we had in college/high skool. i'm gonna change. i'm quite motivated to start studying anytime soon for my exams in May/June.
today i had lunch with Izzah. i am going to stay with her next year in a 2 bedroom apartment. went to an agent to see if they can help us find some nice ones, but the guy who talked to us said there aren't any available apartments now, and so, we have to wait till May or June. he will be keeping in touch i think. worse come to worse, i'll just stay in any of the student halls here.
Azri and Arif will be coming to Manchester tomorrow. might be having dinner with them.
Saturday is my Pharmacy Ball. i'm excited to get all dressed up.
i may not only be the choreographer for Malaysian Night, but MAYBE i'll also be one of the dancers or actresses. we'll see.
*LOVES*
Tuesday, 3 March 2009
The Big Picture
when i played netball
Laura, me and Kathryn - my flatmates
Laura and I
fashion show
my international 16 hoodie
some of the international 16
Me, Francesca, Aina and Debbie
Monday, 2 March 2009
Weekend in Bristol with the International 16
i know some of u may know what the hell is international 16. but to those of u who dont, international 16 is a group of 16 students of 16 different nationalities who meet up every week and do a lot of activities together, either cultural or just plain leisure. this group is organised by the International Society of Manchester University. to be in this group, one has to go to an informal interview. for this year, the 16s were picked out from about 200 interviewees. so i was lucky enough to be part of this group.
the reason why i was interested to join this group is coz i wanna get to know more people and get out from my safe zone. since Manchester has a huge population of Malaysians, we tend to stick to each other, and this results to Malaysians not mixing around with other people. so being in the international 16 is such a great opportunity for me to meet other people from other countries. well, i have my Brit flatmates and coursemates, so i need another group of people who are international people.
we had a trip before, to Yorkshire Dales. this trip to Bristol was our 2nd trip. it was fun. major bonding time with them. well, this trip was actually for us to get together our ideas and practise for a performance that we're gonna do for school kids this Wednesday. so we didnt get to go around Bristol that much coz most of our daytime we spent at the theatre skool to practise for the performance. i didnt really like the idea of this actually, but atleast we spent some quality time together on Saturday night at our group leader's dad's house. had dinner there, and the food was amazing. love it! then we just talked and talked and talked.
i remember having conversations with some of them and it went some sort like this.
John: hey Annis, u dont look like typical Malay
Annis: what do u mean by typical Malay?
John: most of them wear head scarf.
Annis: well, i've told u the reasons why i dont wear head scarf. i'm not ready yet.
William: ur a Muslim?
Annis: yeh...
Paul: do u pray everyday?
Annis: yup...
Paul: 5 times a day?
Annis: nope.. (honest)
Paul: do u drink at all?
Annis: nope
William: do u go to the mosque to pray?
Annis: no, i pray at home
William: u pray towards Makkah right?
Annis: yup
William: funny... i can't imagine u praying with the clothes covering u and all.
Dragos: Malaysia is a Muslim country right? do u have women's rights there?
Annis: of course. some of the ministers in Malaysia are women
Dragos: owh.. i thought that Malaysia is like the Arab countries.
goshh... some deep conversation there. i don't feel hurt or whatsoever with what they said. i have to keep an open mind and explain to them why this is like this and that is like that. i may not be a good picture of how a Muslim woman should be (physically). i understand why they asked me those questions coz in their minds, they have a typical picture of a Muslim woman - conservative in every way, covered with cloth from head to toe. i am not like those women. but it doesn't mean that i don't have a strong belief in my religion and Allah. belief comes from the heart.
anyway, overall i had a good time in Bristol. ooohh.. i juz got the international 16 hoodie! hooray! it's too simple, i would say but it represents us, so i cant say much.
there's a bit of conflict in my flat lately. and i hate that i got dragged into this little mess. bak kata Aina, org putih ni buat hal plak. anyway, i'll have to upload pics later! internet's a bitch!
*LOVES*
the reason why i was interested to join this group is coz i wanna get to know more people and get out from my safe zone. since Manchester has a huge population of Malaysians, we tend to stick to each other, and this results to Malaysians not mixing around with other people. so being in the international 16 is such a great opportunity for me to meet other people from other countries. well, i have my Brit flatmates and coursemates, so i need another group of people who are international people.
we had a trip before, to Yorkshire Dales. this trip to Bristol was our 2nd trip. it was fun. major bonding time with them. well, this trip was actually for us to get together our ideas and practise for a performance that we're gonna do for school kids this Wednesday. so we didnt get to go around Bristol that much coz most of our daytime we spent at the theatre skool to practise for the performance. i didnt really like the idea of this actually, but atleast we spent some quality time together on Saturday night at our group leader's dad's house. had dinner there, and the food was amazing. love it! then we just talked and talked and talked.
i remember having conversations with some of them and it went some sort like this.
John: hey Annis, u dont look like typical Malay
Annis: what do u mean by typical Malay?
John: most of them wear head scarf.
Annis: well, i've told u the reasons why i dont wear head scarf. i'm not ready yet.
William: ur a Muslim?
Annis: yeh...
Paul: do u pray everyday?
Annis: yup...
Paul: 5 times a day?
Annis: nope.. (honest)
Paul: do u drink at all?
Annis: nope
William: do u go to the mosque to pray?
Annis: no, i pray at home
William: u pray towards Makkah right?
Annis: yup
William: funny... i can't imagine u praying with the clothes covering u and all.
Dragos: Malaysia is a Muslim country right? do u have women's rights there?
Annis: of course. some of the ministers in Malaysia are women
Dragos: owh.. i thought that Malaysia is like the Arab countries.
goshh... some deep conversation there. i don't feel hurt or whatsoever with what they said. i have to keep an open mind and explain to them why this is like this and that is like that. i may not be a good picture of how a Muslim woman should be (physically). i understand why they asked me those questions coz in their minds, they have a typical picture of a Muslim woman - conservative in every way, covered with cloth from head to toe. i am not like those women. but it doesn't mean that i don't have a strong belief in my religion and Allah. belief comes from the heart.
anyway, overall i had a good time in Bristol. ooohh.. i juz got the international 16 hoodie! hooray! it's too simple, i would say but it represents us, so i cant say much.
there's a bit of conflict in my flat lately. and i hate that i got dragged into this little mess. bak kata Aina, org putih ni buat hal plak. anyway, i'll have to upload pics later! internet's a bitch!
*LOVES*
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