POST MALAYSIAN NIGHT BBQ PARTY!

IT WAS GREAT!
enough said.
i loveeeeeeeeee these people that i worked with during the Malaysian Night and i had so much fun when i got the chance to meet them again.
the park that we had the bbq was platt fields park. it was beautiful!

ooohhh.. before that, i had a haircut. Phebe, one of the people i know from Malaysian Night, cut my hair. i like it. plus it was only 5 pounds. i'm very happy indeed. so see the pics. what do u think? hehhe. ooh.. more pics on Facebook. =)

*LOVES*

Turn On That Study Mode

oh my.
exam starts in less than a month.
i've started my revision but i have to say i'm chilling out a lot.
typical me.
for the past few days, i've been going to the library with my friends.
we always book the study room but starting this week, we decided not to coz we realised how much we actually wasted our time when we were in the study room.
wat do u expect? we can make as much noise as we want to coz the study rooms are meant for group study.
it was fun tho. when random thoughts came to our minds, we just blurted it out and the lot of us would laugh out loud.

bitching time in malay now. ok. flatmate aku ni bermasalah sket. korang tau kan aku slalu kuar ngan kwn2 sume. aku da lama rasa diorg tak brape suke aku slalu kuar ngan kwn2 aku tp ari tu aku kuar, satu flatmate aku ni msg aku tny ble aku blk. die kata die fed up duk flat sorang2. pastu ble aku blk die moody plak. stress tul. adoiiii.. tolong la. bleh je aku nak ckp ngan die, ko gi cari kwn2 ko bleh tak. masalahnye kan, diorg ni tak byk kwn uni. klau kuar mkn/clubbing ke ape, mesti kuar ktorg satu flat je. cam susah la kan. aku nak kuar pon kena pikir die ok ke tak, tapi aku mcm tak kisah da. bknnye salah aku die taknak kuar ngan kwn2 die.

ok ok. done bitching. i think that i actually have to stop going out for food with my friends and cook more at home. but wat to do, like last week, everytime we finished study, we went to eat. haih. =S

looking forward to this weekend. Francesca and I are going to Liverpool. da janji ngan our friends since Liverpool M Night. probably our last time to enjoy before exams.

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Back to normal

my life is back to normal now.
No more Malaysian Night practices. =( =( =(
Lectures have started again.
Exams are a month away.
owh my owh my.
i haven't started my revision yet. i shall start tonight because i'm going to the library now with Tony and Eric.
my assignments are almost done.

but exams??? oh pls. i've been wanting to start my revision since a few days ago.
but i've been procrastinating. and i've been going out as well.
aiyooo... i can never be like i was back in KTJ and SMSJ. i was so diligent and hardworking. but now. distractions distractions distractions.

sorry you guys have to read my ranting. oh well. it's a blog. deal with it.

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Manchester Malaysian Night 2009

i think the Malaysian Night this year was great.

despite the fact that we did everything at the last minute, it turned out to be pretty good. i'm very satisfied, after all the hard work we'd put in.

i got some honest feedbacks from my friends... they said the acting was really good, but the dances were a bit shitty especially the dikir barat. not much spirit was put into the dikir barat performance. however, other dances like the street dance really got good feedbacks.

i'm gonna miss all the practices for this night. we really did put a lot of effort, and i think the effort paid off. of course i didn't get paid to act as the main character, but as long as people are happy with my performance, then i'm happier than ever.

just wanna say thanks to the committee for choosing me as the main character and for guiding and believing in me that i could carry out the role very well. and thanks to them as well for being patient with me throughout the practices. i know i was not that punctual at times, but oh well.. i'm a Malaysian, wat do u expect?

thanks to the production crew, without u guys, the Malaysian Night is NOTHING!

to all my friends who supported me til the big night, THANK YOU SO MUCH! it meant the world to me that u guys came and to those who couldn't come, i still love u guys as much!

thanks to the audience too for being there. if u guys weren't there, then the Malaysian Night would not be as fun as last night.

to the other main actors - Foong Tsin, Janesh and Max, I LOVE YOU GUYS!

All I need to do is BREATHE

i think i had a major PMS yesterday. and i was surprised at how well i could control myself from having a proper face to face bitch fit with the mnight crew.

yes. i'm a girl and i cant run away from being hormonal.

and yes my posts tend to be influenced by my PMS. so if you do get offended by my mood swings, please please do not read my blog.

the posts for this blog are sincerely from my very own thoughts, how i think and feel at the very moment, and i know some people have been offended by my previous posts. i can apologise to all for being offensive, but then again, it's a blog, and the blogger can write anything she or he thinks, no?

anyway, i'm pretty happy with the practice today. we had another rehearsal, and today seemed sooooooo much better. more organised. though, i still wish everyone would turn up. but i guess this is what i have to expect when working in big group.

i watched 17 again after having dinner with Tony, Alvin and Izzah. huhu. i never like Zac Efron but he looked steamingly hot in that movie. owh his eyes. but then again, his face is a bit TOO pretty that he actually looked like a doll.

owh my. how time flies. i'm sure gonna miss Malaysian Night practices. all the laughters and getting pissed off. lol. seriously. it was a fun journey. but then again, when the stress builds up, u just feel like slapping everyone.

Aina, Deb and Hayat are coming to stay with me tomorrow. my lovers since KTJ. how touching when they come all the way from London and Nottingham just to give moral support. and Deb is having exam next week.

i shall de-stress myself tomorrow night. probably going to Rusholme. Jazera, Moonlight.. and maybe Musicana Cafe. i like the sound of that.
I NEED TO BREATHE.

Is it too much if i say that I wanna cry because of the M Nite?

when i do something, especially when a few people persuaded me to do it and i myself think i'm not very capable of doing it, i'd try my best to do it whole-heartedly and 100% commitment. plus, when it's a big event, i'd definitely give my all. i don't have that "ahh.. bantai je la" shit attitude, especially when i'm putting my face on the line.

i am not going to talk shit about anybody but this is gonna be a major bitch fit for everyone who is involved in the Malaysian Night ok. i'm so pissed off and all i can do is bitch.

OK. first thing's first. i wouldn't agree to be the main cast of this year's m night if not atleast 10 people wanted and believed that i could do it. i have no experience in acting on stage or whatsoever so obviously, taking the role would mean suicide, literally.

so i took the challenge. and i practised hard, during practices with the directors and on my own. i tried to come for every practice. tried to be there on time. for me, i've given atleast 90% commitment.

up to this point, i'm pretty much convinced that i can put up a good act on the night, but as u can see, it's called Malaysian Night, not Annis' Night. so the night reflects on the effort done by everyone, no?

people said to me, juz worry bout ur acting. i can't.

at the rehearsal today, all i wanted to do was to break down and cry. but i controlled myself. a few people asked me whats wrong and all i could say was "everything's a mess" and i held back my tears.

really, by now, EVERYONE should be giving 110% commitment. it's a fucking big night. the tickets are almost sold out. 600 people coming, not 60 ok. why can't all of you feel that this is fucking important?

i feel really sorry for the MSSM committee members. as stress as i am, i bet the stress is 10x more for them. i can understand why they are not being too pushy coz some people might just leave the production if the any of the committee members snaps at them.

i may be hormonal as well coz it's my first day period. but i was never hormonal when i get my period before this. hish.

i'm tired. 10am practice tomorrow. but i suppose even if i come at 10, the practice will start at 11 or 12. i'm tired of giving my all when others don't seem to.

BACK!!!

back from Spain people!

it was a great trip, though a bit of stress here and there but oh well.. this our first trip to europe together so we didn't really prepare well.

haha.. but then again, it was a lot of fun. thinking back all the laughters and memories in Spain, goshhh.. i miss u four already!

went there with Aina, Debbie, Nurul and Hazim.

i'm not in a mood to say much bout the trip.

i'm all stressed up for M Night.

luckily my flatmates arent here. was practising my lines and i was screaming and shouting and crying. omg. why!!!

6 more days.
ooh.. fyi, tickets are selling out fast. 400 tickets have been sold in 2 weeks!
150 left.

hopefully it's a sold out event.

imma make it big.

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Tired.. and need a good break

this week has been quite hectic for me.

been going for practices every single day.

sometimes the practices can be as short as 2-3 hours.
sometimes can go up to 6-7 hours.

yes yes.

Manchester Malaysian Night is a big thing. so i'm making as much effort as possible to make everyone's 10 pounds worthy.

seriously, i just wish they can speed up everything.

haih.

tomorrow afternoon i'm going to London, and flying off to Spain on Monday.

but i gotta wake up early tomorrow to make the trailer. and then cast practice til 1. my train to London leaves at 3.35.

i'm still not asleep. it's 3 am. my room's a mess.

just came back from watching Knowing with Azri and Tony. good movie. highly recommended. =)

can someone please turn back the clock so that i have more time for everything?

but then again, i haven't been organising my time properly.

i'll be getting only 5 hours of sleep if i sleep now. so i was thinking, is there any point of sleeping now?

in friendships, i'm always making the effort. but sometimes, i felt like my effort is not appreciated, like today. my Cambridge friends canceled lunch with me for reasons that i could not accept. or maybe there's a solid reason that u guys are hiding from me? i don't think i want to make the effort anymore.

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Apologies

i didn't know that quite a number of people are reading my blog, including the people that i'm not close with and also some people that i don't even know.

regarding my previous post, i may have upset a few people particularly Manchester Malays. i'm sorry for that. i'm not gonna say that i didn't mean what i said, coz from my point of view that was how i see the situation and i reacted instantly by posting such nasty (i would say, after reading the post again) post.

to the Malays in Rusholme, i didn't mean to offend all of you, especially to those who actually mix around and not just stick to the Malay clan. that post was not meant for you, and like you said Nikman, it's not fair for those Malays who actually mix around with others. i apologise for that. and yes, the vulgar words. i can't really control that when i'm pissed off. sorry!

i think at the same time, i felt really hurt when only a handful of Malays volunteered to join the Malaysian Night this year. we really need to pull a few others in, but people kept on rejecting us. i am well aware that many Malays joined the Malaysian Night during the previous years. but how about this year? i just don't get it and i am pretty pissed off about that. there are hundreds of first year Malaysians that i saw during fresher's week. where have they all gone to? i know some have already had plans for easter and stuff like that, but not all, right?

from my point of view now, i feel like quite a lot of Malays are boycotting the Malaysian Night. i've been hearing stories from my Malay friend about their Malay friends saying this and that. i was hurt when i listened to those stories. can somebody please explain to me what's wrong with them?

anyway, enough bout this. Malaysian Night practices have been going ok. but we're still short of people to be the supporting characters. and time is running up. 2 more weeks to go. things to me are quite disorganised and i wonder if we can pull it off. to those of you who are coming, please please don't come to the event with a high expectation. we're pretty much last minute now, but we're putting as much effort as possible.

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