ORGANIC CHEM IS LIKE OMG!!!

ok for the past 10 days, i've been working hard for this paper.
i dont know how many times have i re-read my notes and the textbook. i had gone through all the past papers. i thought i was atleast 90% ready for the exam.

but no. when i stepped into the exam hall, i was aiming high. i wasnt aiming for an A. but i said to myself, i've worked hard... and i atleast deserve a 60-70%. ok maybe i didnt start my revision like a month ago, but the last 10 days was worth a month's revision. i study for this paper like 3 hours per day atleast. sometimes could go up to 4 hours. maybe that's not a lot to you, but adding with another 4 hours of physical pharm, that's like 8 hours. bloody hell!

however, when i started doin the MCQs, i was like... fuckk.... there goes my 60-70%. then when i did the subjective questions, i was like... fuck off man! i'll be fucking glad if i get 40%!! for me to pass this subject, i have to get about 25% for this exam, but for god's sake, people who read a day before their exam could atleast get that, no? haihhh.. i dunno.

why why why!!!! i friggin love organic chem. dats like my fav since form 4. hishhh.. but these morons (professors) made it hard enough for us!! come on. it was our first exam. and i bet u ppl want all of us to pass, so why not cut us some slacks eyh?

owhh God... i may not be those people who would study til late hours, stay in room and become anti social, and not have any sort of entertainment during exam period. no.. i'm not those kind of ppl. i've never been anyway. but i really think i atleast deserve to pass this exam. i'm not asking for more than 50% coz i know at some points when i did the paper, i panicked when i know i shouldnt have.

ok end of babbling bout exams.

in between my study hours, i reward myself by watching Lipstick Jungle season 2. havent heard of it? ok. it's a tv series bout three career women (it's like the opposite of Desperate Housewives). and one of them has a very very sexy hot beautiful toyboy! KIRBY ATWOOD. my sis Ratih and i absolutely adore him. he's gorgeous. not ur average pretty boy, Kirby is different. drool...........

fyi, in this pic he doesnt look as good as he does in the tv series itself. i dont know, maybe it's all the cute things he does for his girlfriend that make him look more attractive!!

anyway, i'm stuck to this song - A Million Love Songs by Take That.. AND it was sung by JLS in X Factor. watch this video here.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0lneXYMe1Tw

Hmmmmm....

for the past 2 days, i had been going on a house hunt with my flatmates.
last year, we were planning to stay in the same student hall we are staying now..
but because of the feud going on with my flat and the flat below us, they decided not to stay anymore.

i'm not really keen on the idea of staying in house. maybe coz staying in an apartment or student hall is easier to manage. so these three girls - Laura,
Kathryn and Rebecca really really want me to stay with them.
owh by the way, they've found the ideal house for them. it's a 4-bedroom house on Olney Street. if ur reading this Dian, the area is between where i'm staying now and Victoria Park area. it's a really small but cosy house. they've paid the deposit and they're now waiting for me to decide if i wanna stay with them.

i love staying with these girls, i really do. but i talked to Mama bout staying in a house and she doesn't really like the idea. more responsibilities. lallala... like accidents can happen. wat if one of us forgot to lock the door and there's always a risk that some assholes would break into our house. haihhh.. had a long talk with Mama and i'm pretty convinced that i cant and dont wanna stay in a house. i've told them about my parents not agreeing, but they're so persuasive. arggghh... and i hate letting people down. =(

so, Rebecca was telling me all sorts of things for me to tell Papa about living in a house. haihhh.. i told her that Papa is not a very negotiable person. plus, i've already told her that i'm only 50% keen on staying in a house. huhu.
i'm in dilemma.

but i think they know that there's a greater possibility that i wont be staying with them. it's just that they hate the idea of finding the 4th housemate if i turn this down. apparently they dont have anyone that they know who would fit to be their housemate other than me. there's actually Kathryn's brother, Dave that can stay with them. but the 3 of them hate that idea. or Ritchie, Rebecca's boyfriend could stay as well, but even Rebecca hates that idea. lol.

ok. i'm done for now. did i tell u i've been working hard for these exams? but i still had time to go house hunting with them.

Dear God,
please please let me get atleast a pass for these exams. i know i havent worked hard enough to get an A, but a pass would do. =) but i'm working as hard as i can to deserve atleast a B or C.


*LOVES*

The Current Routine

the past two days, i have been waking up bout 6.30 or 7 in the morning. weird? yes, weird for me coz i always wake at 9 or 10am.. sometimes can even go up to 12 or 1 after a night out. lol.

no worries. i'm not having insomnia. it's just that i've been sleeping very early, like 10 pm.. 2 nights ago i slept at 8.30pm. it was supposed to be a short nap before i resume to my study but nahhh.. i actually woke up at 11.30pm, read for an hour then dozed off to sleep again.

today and yesterday were boring!!!! stayed at home. and study. and online. dats it. but today atleast got to see Eric and Zaim for lunch. but just for an hour coz the 3 of us have exams and we have to study. boohooooo!!

i was just browsing through some of my old pics on facebook and read the comments. they were hilarious. i was laughing alone in my room. to Nina, Maliq, Syam and Aliah... remember those pics we took at Shera's sister's wedding? i was laughing my ass off when i read that. really. that brightened up my night (now is 6.30pm and it's as dark as 12am in msia). so yehh.. I MISS U LOT!

*LOVES*

SHOPPING!!

today was a very productive day for me. i shopped from morning til evening! lol.

so first thing's first. i woke up bout 8.30. got ready and went to take a bus to Tesco and Worldwide. had to buy food, groceries. lallala... 37 quids on that. gle btul.

then went home and put my stuff. Rebecca was back in the flat but she had to go home to take care of her dog. no one's at her home.. so yeh...

then went to Rice to meet Francesca and Syafea (my fellow coursemates who are Malaysians). after lunch, we decided to have a window shopping. pfft. yeh right. turned out to be a real shopping spree. lol.

so we went to Clarks first. the sale was crazy! the prices were marked down like crazy. so i left Clarks with a bag that had 3 pairs of shoes in it. happy2! bought 2 pairs of flats and a pair of high heels. so.. the price for the 3 pairs was well worthy. 42 quids for 3 pairs?! it's friggin CLARKS! 1 pair of shoes costs atleast 40 quids. soooooo.. i am a very happy girl today!

then went to other shops. really tempted to buy more but i have to save up a bit for my london trip later this month. and shit i juz realised i have to pay Leon for the Pussycat Dolls concert ticket.... grrrrrrrrrrrrr....

ooohh... that's not it. went to Jane Norman and the dresses there were 70% off. so i bought a dress at 11 pounds. how good is that? lol.

i know i have exams. no need to remind me. i'm gonna start STUDYING later tonight. promise. =)

*loves*

BACK IN MANCHESTER!!!

I'm back in the UK. this time, i'm neither happy nor sad to be back.
1 month of holiday in Malaysia was definitely not enough, like i said before. maybe coz i spent too much time on sleeping, so i didnt get to do the things i had/needed to do. arghhh.. but the past is already in the past. so forget it.

everytime i go back to UK, i feel a bit reluctant to leave only coz of my mom, coz she's pretty lonely at home. she only has Bibik and Molly the Cat to accompany her during the day when Papa and Ratih go to work. she seldom goes out with her friends. she usually meets them only during her aerobic and gym classes. haihh.. Mama mama... atleast when i was around, i would annoy her a lot. yes people.... i'm very very close to my mom. you'll only get to see my kiddy side if i'm with my mom. hehehhe.

it's ok mama. Annis balik lagi 5 bulan. and i have 3 months to annoy u puas2. hihi. LOVE YOU.

the flight to Manchester was shitssss. from Dubai to Manchester, the flight was full. all the British wanna come back from their holidays. but the flight from KLIA to Dubai wasnt full at all. infact, i got four seats to myself. hell yeah!

i'm glad i got the front seat this time. so i became kiasu when we stepped out of the plane, as i rushed towards the immigration. gle tak nak queue panjang kan... so i was one of the first ones to reach the immigration. didnt even have to queue. hahha. then had to wait for the luggage bag. had to wait for almost 30 mins. ni sume mat salihnye pasal, sume nak balik time aku nak balik gak! hishhh.. when evrythin was done, walked to the train station and got a train to Manchester Piccadilly. owh by the way, the weather was very welcoming, thank God. it was sunny, no rain, no wind... temperature was 3 degrees. and i was really surprised that i wasnt shivering my ass off. lol. so it was good.

my flatmate, Kathryn was being an angel coz she picked me up from the Piccadilly station. owh by the way, if you dont know, my flatmates are all British. and who says British are stuck ups! my flatmates are really nice! although sometimes a bit difficult to connect with them, but i think thats just me being the only non British in the flat. so there are only four of us in our flat - Rebecca, Laura, Kathryn and I. yes, i'm the oddball. waiting for Rebecca and Laura to come back! =)

when reached my flat, i unpacked straight away. hate leaving my things in luggage. then chat with a few people on msn - Aliah, Shera, Tammie.. and some others. then had lunch (mama's sambal daging). sedap sgt! pastu Aina called me on Skype. as usual, we talked for about an hour. she had a big news to tell me and she couldn't wait. haih mak cik ni.. she never fails to let me be one of first ones to know if she has a juicy gossip. lol. she would kick my ass (literally) when she thinks i need it. so thank u Aina! was telling her bout things on my mind, serious macam ckp ngan psychologist!

it's been 3 months. sooner or later i have to put a stop to everything that's been messing with my mind. i have to, and i want to. in fact, i want it to stop right now. but why is it so hard?

very few people know whats going on. no worries, i'm OK! i'm still living a happy life, though at times i do feel empty. i guess it's a test from God. i've never been tested by Him, not in this way atleast. so i accept whatever it is.


BY THE WAY, TODAY (15TH) IS PIJA'S 20TH BIRTHDAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!
havent met her since... form 5 i think? but we're Petites, so we still connect via other Petites. anyway, Aliah made a huge effort by telling each of us to make a voice msg/video for pija. done my part. hope Pija likes it. *loves!*

Bye-bye!!!

i'm going back to UK tonight.
hold on. i know i've been telling people that i'm goin back on the 14th. dats true. my flight tonight is at 12.30 am. so... it's still considered as 14th.
huhu.. i'm gonna miss home! 3 1/2 weeks of holiday is not enough!
but i'll be back in summer. 3 months of holiday. i'll be damn bored coz the holiday is too long. i'm planning to work again this summer. maybe at a pharmacy.

i don't really wanna go back to UK coz i'll be facing the exams!! noooooooooo...
i only revised for Organic Chemistry. i didnt even touch Physical Pharmacy. and that's my weakest subject coz i dont know anything bout it! hopefully i'll be able to pass both exams. arghhh...

i'm actually looking forward to after the exams. will be going to London for 5 days or so. hopefully get to meet up with old friends from Bellerbys then. definitely will meet up with some KTJians. i'll be staying with Aina for 1 night.

oooohh... i need to shop, PRONTO!! i'm soooo gonna shop the day after i come back to Manchester.
what i need:
- a pair of high heels (for occasions/parties)
- a pair of boots (for everyday)
- a dress maybe, to add to my collection of dresses?? hihi....
- sweater/cardigan

i don't know why recently i have an obsession for dresses. can't look at one without saying, "oohh dats so pretty, imma get dat". so... for my next birthday (in October), if you really really have no idea wat to get for me, juz get a dress ok?

okies... so i'm off now! need to meet my doctor (the one i worked with last summer) and Kak Ila (doc's clinic assistant), then have to finish packing. and i'm all ready to go back to UK, or NOT!

*LOVES*

p/s: bye everyone! i'm gonna miss u all so so much. do keep in touch. u know my email. u have my msn. i'm always appearing offline, so just nudge me when u want me! i love y'all!

a mini reunion for the 5L 06

today i went out with some of my ex classmates in KTJ - Aina, Hafizah, Ibrahim, Aidy and Izzah.
we expected more people to come, but i guess it was quite a late notice for them.. and i think some of them just didn't really bother to go out with only the six of us. so whatever, their lost. the six of us had fun, laughing our asses off whilst reminiscing the good old days in KTJ. we also talked bout whats going on in each other's lives.

so we went to Mid Valley and the Gardens. had lunch at Chilis and tea at mamak. we didnt do anything else but just talked and ate. really really miss KTJ!! i think i had the best high school days there. yes.. there were loads of dramas in KTJ, especially amongst the 5L but that made our lives there so interesting. i remember telling Aina that i regretted coming to KTJ (i think it was during the first few months i came). well i think i was a bit stressed when i first came. imagine listening to people saying that some of my classmates didn't like me and i don't fucking know the reason why. but as time passed by, i learned dat that's ust the way KTJians are. they can dislike someone even if that someone did nothing wrong to them. and apparently i've developed that attitude as well. very bad, i know. anyways, when we were in form 5, everyone just seemed to get along pretty well with each other. no doubt we bitched about each other, but i think that was KTJ life.

now, we're all grown up. Aina and i used to talk for hours on the phone about our lives in KTJ, and we just laughed and laughed. sometimes we talk about the same thing, over and over again.. i guess when we were in KTJ, we didn't appreciate the life we had there as much as we do now after we left.

in KTJ, i learned both good and bad things, and it's totally up to you which one to follow. firstly, i learned to mix with different kinds of people. i used to choose the people i hang out with, but not since i came to KTJ. secondly, not to judge people. people in KTJ come from diversed backgrounds. some come from filthy rich families with no boundaries in their lives, some come from moderate families (like me) and some are very religious. i learned to mix with all of these people. before i came to KTJ, i stayed away from drinkers and party animals. but in KTJ, i learned that these kind of people werent any different from me. yes, they commit big sins, but who are we to judge? that's between them and God. there's no good reason for me to stay away from them. some of them were good friends to me.

living in KTJ opened up my eyes to the real world and it made my life easier when i came to UK. when i first came to study in UK, i know i didnt experience any culture shock or whatsoever. and yet, i still know my boundaries.

outing with the SJians

today, i went out with my SJ friends - Maliq, Jaja, Azzy and Sofiya...
i've known these people since i was 13 (except Azzy coz she came to our school when we were 15). we all were classmates (3 BAKTI 04). i really miss those days. huhu. =(
despite the distance, we all manage to stay in touch with each other. though not very often, we still know whats going on in each other's lives. i guess they are what we call real friends.. and i love them to bits and pieces!!
so we didn't get to go out that long coz i had to come back before papa came back from work. for this week, i've been going out every day, which is why i don't want papa to know that i went out today. i don't think he really cares, but just to spare the nagging, i rather not let him know. plus, i'm planning to go out again tomorrow and papa definitely will know, coz he'll be at home!!

so back to the main topic. i went out with these four friends of mine. eventhough it was short, we still had a blast! owh yeh.. when there's Maliq, FOR SURE there'd be a camwhoring session. so, Sofiya, Jaja and i took out our cameras and snap snap snap. owhh.. we went to Sunway Pyramid and hang out at Subway. so after eating, we took loads and loads of pics.. ok u people can see those pics in facebook. it was really fun. i think the people in Subway were annoyed. owh wat the hell.. we were only there for an hour, so no biggie ok..

owh i just finished re-dyeing my hair.. just had to touch up the dark roots.
and i forgot to mention that i cut my hair yesterday.. so tomorrow will be a day out with some of my classmates in KTJ, the 5L 06! looking forward to it! hope it'll be great and many people will turn up. fingers crossed.

i'm done for the day. i still haven't revised for my exams. arghhhhhhhhh..!!!

Pussycat Dolls!!! Ne-Yo!

omg!!! guess what??
i'm going to Pussycat Dolls concert in London on the 27th January!!!
how amazing is that?!!
this will be my 2nd time watching them live.
the first time was in 2006 when they came to Malaysia, and i say the concert was awesome! eventhough i think that the venue (sunway lagoon) wasn't a really good idea. come on... i was like 100m away from the stage and there were like hundreds or thousands of people in front of me. i couldn't get to see them clearly, but if i was any shorter i wouldnt get to see them at all! thank God for my height!
but this time, i think i will get to see them better!
owh.. the venue will be at O2 Arena London, and i will be going with Leon! he was the one who asked me if i'm interested to go. owh well Leon knows i love Pussycat Dolls and hell yeah he got the ticket for me. i didn't expect him to get the tickets at first, coz he told me the tickets sold out... and suddenly he wrote on my Facebook wall telling me he bought the tickets for us. owh God. there goes 52 pounds for the concert. but i would say it's worthy. plus, Ne-Yo will be there too! i wasn't a big fan of Ne-Yo until recently. i just love his new songs.

ooohh.. can't wait to see Leon! haven't seen him since.. let's see.. 27th September which was my ex's birthday..
owh the memories...

owh you might not know Leon.. well, he's one of my closest friends when i was in Bellerbys College, Cambridge. i call him my bitching partner. some of my friends said dat he's my girlfriend. well, Leon loves fashion as much as i do and i would definitely bring him shopping with me when i was in Cambridge. he was such a good fashion adviser. and he is the best bitching partner a girl could have. and also one of the best camwhoring partners i ever had. eventhough i only got to know him during the last 6 months in Bellerbys College, but we bonded pretty well. MISS YOU, BITCH!

with my other close friends from Bellerbys - Jin, Sim and Anthony - i am still keeping in touch with them now and then. i'm very grateful that the break up didn't affect our friendships whatsoever. juz that i haven't met them for so long (except Anthony who came to Manchester twice).. i really really miss them... huhu. i can't go to Cambridge, atleast not anytime soon.. coz i don't wanna walk down the memory lane. i had enough; getting flashbacks from the past every single day. yes.. i do get that.. don't friggin ask me why and how, coz i myself don't want those memories stuck to me.

ok dats enough blabbing for the day.

*LOVES*

Basically....

I just came back from a big dinner with my family and parents' friends. arghhh.. i'm friggin bloated now. so i need to do something to keep me from falling asleep. i know my bed is calling but watever.. lol.

so there maybe some strangers who might read my blog and wonders who the hell am i. so here goes.

I'm Annis Natalia binti Abdul Hamed Shah.
Malaysian Malay.
19 years old. D.O.B is 5th October 1989.
Studying in University of Manchester, UK.
Currently doing Pharmacy in first year.

My Education History

• SK Subang Jaya (1996-2001)
• SMK Subang Jaya (2002-2004)
• MRSM Jasin (Feb -July 2005)
• Kolej Tuanku Jaafar (August 2005-Dec 2006)
• Bellerbys College, Cambridge UK (Jan 2007-June 2008)

Really... i am just your average teenage girl. or maybe not. i don't know. well i think you need to read my daily posts first to know what kind of person i am. whatever i write in this blog is who i am. no fakes please. and if you do want to judge me for the way i lead my life, that's totally up to you.

I think this blog is useful for my friends in Malaysia to know whats going on in my life. it's really hard to contact them because of the distance. MSN can be pretty shitty and the time difference. not good. in a way, i like to keep them updated.

WHAT AM I UP TO NOW?
Well.. i am currently in Malaysia for the Christmas holiday. I have been going out with my friends and had some major catching up with them. so far i'm enjoying the holiday. although most of the time, i've stayed at home, but i just love being a lazy bum and have nothing to do. owh wait.. actually i do have something to do. i have to friggin study for my exams! i did study, no worries people! but not as much as i should. arghh.. papa said if i fail the exams, he's gonna bring me back to Malaysia.. FOR GOOD! geezz.. harshh.. i know. but it's your money, papa and i'll try my best to make the most out of it. so yeah.. i'm not a scholar (sometimes i wish i was). but there's no way to become a scholar if i didn't apply after SPM. ok forget it. i'm grateful that my papa is sponsoring me, tapi kesian papa banyak pakai duit!
so.. i only have to exams.. Organic Chemistry and Physical Pharmacy exams.. on 23rd and 26th January respectively. I cannot and will not fail for these exams. afterall, i just need to get atleast 40%. if i can't get that, i'm the dumbest shit ever and i will never forgive myself. ok. a bit too dramatic, but i just don't want to fail! owh.. by the way if you people were wondering why am i targetting 40%, is coz.... i only need to pass my first year to get to 2nd year. best part is first year is not counted for the whole degree. so what the hell. 40% it is!

ok. i'm off to watch One Tree Hill Season 5 Episode 13 on Youtube!
I just finished watching Gossip Girl Season 2 Episode 14. loves it. Serena and Dan are back together! WTF??!!! this couple had gone through so much dramas, so please, spare the future drama! i like them together but i just can't stand their little dramas! SO PATHETIC!
i'm up for Chuck and Blair. more interesting, i would say.

*LOVES*

testing...

testing testing...
this is not my first time blogging!
I used to blog on friendster but i abandoned that blog ages ago.
so, my friends have been pressuring to make a blog, since most of them have one. ok guys, happy? hehhe. so, i'm a newbie on blogspot and i'll be needing YOUR help if i get stuck. yes, you. hehhe. dats it for now

xoxo,
Annis Natalia