ORGANIC CHEM IS LIKE OMG!!!

ok for the past 10 days, i've been working hard for this paper.
i dont know how many times have i re-read my notes and the textbook. i had gone through all the past papers. i thought i was atleast 90% ready for the exam.

but no. when i stepped into the exam hall, i was aiming high. i wasnt aiming for an A. but i said to myself, i've worked hard... and i atleast deserve a 60-70%. ok maybe i didnt start my revision like a month ago, but the last 10 days was worth a month's revision. i study for this paper like 3 hours per day atleast. sometimes could go up to 4 hours. maybe that's not a lot to you, but adding with another 4 hours of physical pharm, that's like 8 hours. bloody hell!

however, when i started doin the MCQs, i was like... fuckk.... there goes my 60-70%. then when i did the subjective questions, i was like... fuck off man! i'll be fucking glad if i get 40%!! for me to pass this subject, i have to get about 25% for this exam, but for god's sake, people who read a day before their exam could atleast get that, no? haihhh.. i dunno.

why why why!!!! i friggin love organic chem. dats like my fav since form 4. hishhh.. but these morons (professors) made it hard enough for us!! come on. it was our first exam. and i bet u ppl want all of us to pass, so why not cut us some slacks eyh?

owhh God... i may not be those people who would study til late hours, stay in room and become anti social, and not have any sort of entertainment during exam period. no.. i'm not those kind of ppl. i've never been anyway. but i really think i atleast deserve to pass this exam. i'm not asking for more than 50% coz i know at some points when i did the paper, i panicked when i know i shouldnt have.

ok end of babbling bout exams.

in between my study hours, i reward myself by watching Lipstick Jungle season 2. havent heard of it? ok. it's a tv series bout three career women (it's like the opposite of Desperate Housewives). and one of them has a very very sexy hot beautiful toyboy! KIRBY ATWOOD. my sis Ratih and i absolutely adore him. he's gorgeous. not ur average pretty boy, Kirby is different. drool...........

fyi, in this pic he doesnt look as good as he does in the tv series itself. i dont know, maybe it's all the cute things he does for his girlfriend that make him look more attractive!!

anyway, i'm stuck to this song - A Million Love Songs by Take That.. AND it was sung by JLS in X Factor. watch this video here.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0lneXYMe1Tw

Hmmmmm....

for the past 2 days, i had been going on a house hunt with my flatmates.
last year, we were planning to stay in the same student hall we are staying now..
but because of the feud going on with my flat and the flat below us, they decided not to stay anymore.

i'm not really keen on the idea of staying in house. maybe coz staying in an apartment or student hall is easier to manage. so these three girls - Laura,
Kathryn and Rebecca really really want me to stay with them.
owh by the way, they've found the ideal house for them. it's a 4-bedroom house on Olney Street. if ur reading this Dian, the area is between where i'm staying now and Victoria Park area. it's a really small but cosy house. they've paid the deposit and they're now waiting for me to decide if i wanna stay with them.

i love staying with these girls, i really do. but i talked to Mama bout staying in a house and she doesn't really like the idea. more responsibilities. lallala... like accidents can happen. wat if one of us forgot to lock the door and there's always a risk that some assholes would break into our house. haihhh.. had a long talk with Mama and i'm pretty convinced that i cant and dont wanna stay in a house. i've told them about my parents not agreeing, but they're so persuasive. arggghh... and i hate letting people down. =(

so, Rebecca was telling me all sorts of things for me to tell Papa about living in a house. haihhh.. i told her that Papa is not a very negotiable person. plus, i've already told her that i'm only 50% keen on staying in a house. huhu.
i'm in dilemma.

but i think they know that there's a greater possibility that i wont be staying with them. it's just that they hate the idea of finding the 4th housemate if i turn this down. apparently they dont have anyone that they know who would fit to be their housemate other than me. there's actually Kathryn's brother, Dave that can stay with them. but the 3 of them hate that idea. or Ritchie, Rebecca's boyfriend could stay as well, but even Rebecca hates that idea. lol.

ok. i'm done for now. did i tell u i've been working hard for these exams? but i still had time to go house hunting with them.

Dear God,
please please let me get atleast a pass for these exams. i know i havent worked hard enough to get an A, but a pass would do. =) but i'm working as hard as i can to deserve atleast a B or C.


*LOVES*

The Current Routine

the past two days, i have been waking up bout 6.30 or 7 in the morning. weird? yes, weird for me coz i always wake at 9 or 10am.. sometimes can even go up to 12 or 1 after a night out. lol.

no worries. i'm not having insomnia. it's just that i've been sleeping very early, like 10 pm.. 2 nights ago i slept at 8.30pm. it was supposed to be a short nap before i resume to my study but nahhh.. i actually woke up at 11.30pm, read for an hour then dozed off to sleep again.

today and yesterday were boring!!!! stayed at home. and study. and online. dats it. but today atleast got to see Eric and Zaim for lunch. but just for an hour coz the 3 of us have exams and we have to study. boohooooo!!

i was just browsing through some of my old pics on facebook and read the comments. they were hilarious. i was laughing alone in my room. to Nina, Maliq, Syam and Aliah... remember those pics we took at Shera's sister's wedding? i was laughing my ass off when i read that. really. that brightened up my night (now is 6.30pm and it's as dark as 12am in msia). so yehh.. I MISS U LOT!

*LOVES*

SHOPPING!!

today was a very productive day for me. i shopped from morning til evening! lol.

so first thing's first. i woke up bout 8.30. got ready and went to take a bus to Tesco and Worldwide. had to buy food, groceries. lallala... 37 quids on that. gle btul.

then went home and put my stuff. Rebecca was back in the flat but she had to go home to take care of her dog. no one's at her home.. so yeh...

then went to Rice to meet Francesca and Syafea (my fellow coursemates who are Malaysians). after lunch, we decided to have a window shopping. pfft. yeh right. turned out to be a real shopping spree. lol.

so we went to Clarks first. the sale was crazy! the prices were marked down like crazy. so i left Clarks with a bag that had 3 pairs of shoes in it. happy2! bought 2 pairs of flats and a pair of high heels. so.. the price for the 3 pairs was well worthy. 42 quids for 3 pairs?! it's friggin CLARKS! 1 pair of shoes costs atleast 40 quids. soooooo.. i am a very happy girl today!

then went to other shops. really tempted to buy more but i have to save up a bit for my london trip later this month. and shit i juz realised i have to pay Leon for the Pussycat Dolls concert ticket.... grrrrrrrrrrrrr....

ooohh... that's not it. went to Jane Norman and the dresses there were 70% off. so i bought a dress at 11 pounds. how good is that? lol.

i know i have exams. no need to remind me. i'm gonna start STUDYING later tonight. promise. =)

*loves*

BACK IN MANCHESTER!!!

I'm back in the UK. this time, i'm neither happy nor sad to be back.
1 month of holiday in Malaysia was definitely not enough, like i said before. maybe coz i spent too much time on sleeping, so i didnt get to do the things i had/needed to do. arghhh.. but the past is already in the past. so forget it.

everytime i go back to UK, i feel a bit reluctant to leave only coz of my mom, coz she's pretty lonely at home. she only has Bibik and Molly the Cat to accompany her during the day when Papa and Ratih go to work. she seldom goes out with her friends. she usually meets them only during her aerobic and gym classes. haihh.. Mama mama... atleast when i was around, i would annoy her a lot. yes people.... i'm very very close to my mom. you'll only get to see my kiddy side if i'm with my mom. hehehhe.

it's ok mama. Annis balik lagi 5 bulan. and i have 3 months to annoy u puas2. hihi. LOVE YOU.

the flight to Manchester was shitssss. from Dubai to Manchester, the flight was full. all the British wanna come back from their holidays. but the flight from KLIA to Dubai wasnt full at all. infact, i got four seats to myself. hell yeah!

i'm glad i got the front seat this time. so i became kiasu when we stepped out of the plane, as i rushed towards the immigration. gle tak nak queue panjang kan... so i was one of the first ones to reach the immigration. didnt even have to queue. hahha. then had to wait for the luggage bag. had to wait for almost 30 mins. ni sume mat salihnye pasal, sume nak balik time aku nak balik gak! hishhh.. when evrythin was done, walked to the train station and got a train to Manchester Piccadilly. owh by the way, the weather was very welcoming, thank God. it was sunny, no rain, no wind... temperature was 3 degrees. and i was really surprised that i wasnt shivering my ass off. lol. so it was good.

my flatmate, Kathryn was being an angel coz she picked me up from the Piccadilly station. owh by the way, if you dont know, my flatmates are all British. and who says British are stuck ups! my flatmates are really nice! although sometimes a bit difficult to connect with them, but i think thats just me being the only non British in the flat. so there are only four of us in our flat - Rebecca, Laura, Kathryn and I. yes, i'm the oddball. waiting for Rebecca and Laura to come back! =)

when reached my flat, i unpacked straight away. hate leaving my things in luggage. then chat with a few people on msn - Aliah, Shera, Tammie.. and some others. then had lunch (mama's sambal daging). sedap sgt! pastu Aina called me on Skype. as usual, we talked for about an hour. she had a big news to tell me and she couldn't wait. haih mak cik ni.. she never fails to let me be one of first ones to know if she has a juicy gossip. lol. she would kick my ass (literally) when she thinks i need it. so thank u Aina! was telling her bout things on my mind, serious macam ckp ngan psychologist!

it's been 3 months. sooner or later i have to put a stop to everything that's been messing with my mind. i have to, and i want to. in fact, i want it to stop right now. but why is it so hard?

very few people know whats going on. no worries, i'm OK! i'm still living a happy life, though at times i do feel empty. i guess it's a test from God. i've never been tested by Him, not in this way atleast. so i accept whatever it is.


BY THE WAY, TODAY (15TH) IS PIJA'S 20TH BIRTHDAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!
havent met her since... form 5 i think? but we're Petites, so we still connect via other Petites. anyway, Aliah made a huge effort by telling each of us to make a voice msg/video for pija. done my part. hope Pija likes it. *loves!*

Bye-bye!!!

i'm going back to UK tonight.
hold on. i know i've been telling people that i'm goin back on the 14th. dats true. my flight tonight is at 12.30 am. so... it's still considered as 14th.
huhu.. i'm gonna miss home! 3 1/2 weeks of holiday is not enough!
but i'll be back in summer. 3 months of holiday. i'll be damn bored coz the holiday is too long. i'm planning to work again this summer. maybe at a pharmacy.

i don't really wanna go back to UK coz i'll be facing the exams!! noooooooooo...
i only revised for Organic Chemistry. i didnt even touch Physical Pharmacy. and that's my weakest subject coz i dont know anything bout it! hopefully i'll be able to pass both exams. arghhh...

i'm actually looking forward to after the exams. will be going to London for 5 days or so. hopefully get to meet up with old friends from Bellerbys then. definitely will meet up with some KTJians. i'll be staying with Aina for 1 night.

oooohh... i need to shop, PRONTO!! i'm soooo gonna shop the day after i come back to Manchester.
what i need:
- a pair of high heels (for occasions/parties)
- a pair of boots (for everyday)
- a dress maybe, to add to my collection of dresses?? hihi....
- sweater/cardigan

i don't know why recently i have an obsession for dresses. can't look at one without saying, "oohh dats so pretty, imma get dat". so... for my next birthday (in October), if you really really have no idea wat to get for me, juz get a dress ok?

okies... so i'm off now! need to meet my doctor (the one i worked with last summer) and Kak Ila (doc's clinic assistant), then have to finish packing. and i'm all ready to go back to UK, or NOT!

*LOVES*

p/s: bye everyone! i'm gonna miss u all so so much. do keep in touch. u know my email. u have my msn. i'm always appearing offline, so just nudge me when u want me! i love y'all!

a mini reunion for the 5L 06

today i went out with some of my ex classmates in KTJ - Aina, Hafizah, Ibrahim, Aidy and Izzah.
we expected more people to come, but i guess it was quite a late notice for them.. and i think some of them just didn't really bother to go out with only the six of us. so whatever, their lost. the six of us had fun, laughing our asses off whilst reminiscing the good old days in KTJ. we also talked bout whats going on in each other's lives.

so we went to Mid Valley and the Gardens. had lunch at Chilis and tea at mamak. we didnt do anything else but just talked and ate. really really miss KTJ!! i think i had the best high school days there. yes.. there were loads of dramas in KTJ, especially amongst the 5L but that made our lives there so interesting. i remember telling Aina that i regretted coming to KTJ (i think it was during the first few months i came). well i think i was a bit stressed when i first came. imagine listening to people saying that some of my classmates didn't like me and i don't fucking know the reason why. but as time passed by, i learned dat that's ust the way KTJians are. they can dislike someone even if that someone did nothing wrong to them. and apparently i've developed that attitude as well. very bad, i know. anyways, when we were in form 5, everyone just seemed to get along pretty well with each other. no doubt we bitched about each other, but i think that was KTJ life.

now, we're all grown up. Aina and i used to talk for hours on the phone about our lives in KTJ, and we just laughed and laughed. sometimes we talk about the same thing, over and over again.. i guess when we were in KTJ, we didn't appreciate the life we had there as much as we do now after we left.

in KTJ, i learned both good and bad things, and it's totally up to you which one to follow. firstly, i learned to mix with different kinds of people. i used to choose the people i hang out with, but not since i came to KTJ. secondly, not to judge people. people in KTJ come from diversed backgrounds. some come from filthy rich families with no boundaries in their lives, some come from moderate families (like me) and some are very religious. i learned to mix with all of these people. before i came to KTJ, i stayed away from drinkers and party animals. but in KTJ, i learned that these kind of people werent any different from me. yes, they commit big sins, but who are we to judge? that's between them and God. there's no good reason for me to stay away from them. some of them were good friends to me.

living in KTJ opened up my eyes to the real world and it made my life easier when i came to UK. when i first came to study in UK, i know i didnt experience any culture shock or whatsoever. and yet, i still know my boundaries.