I'm Doing Just Fine

First week of my final semester was great so far.

Timetable was so chilled.

Only have 4 subjects this semester.

First week - no labs, no hospital. so I was a bit TOO free.

I've started swimming. I realised that my metabolic rate is not as high as it used to be, so if I keep on consuming the amount of food like I have always done, next thing you know, you can't even recognise me. So swimming + netball every week can keep me fit. I don't plan on losing weight, but let's try to maintain that 61kg, ok?

I also went to two concerts this week. James Morrison and Boyz II Men. My friends and I planned to go to James Morrison's like a few months ago. But Boyz II Men. now, that was last minute. Well, I didn't know they were coming until I went to Chicken Cottage and saw their poster. and i was like WTF. i have to go. But who to go with me at such a last minute? so i checked if there were tickets online, and tickets were still selling! so i texted a few friends, and eventually Syaz and Kaizan agreed to accompany me. phew. i can't go to Boyz II Men's concert alone. like duh.

I have to admit, as much as I love James Morrison's performance, but sorry to say nothing beats the legendary Boyz II Men. I grew up listening to them and I have more than 10 of their songs in my iTunes. aaaaaaaaaaaahhh starstruck pls. Plus they were giving out roses when they sang "I'll Make Love to You". as corny as that sounds, i managed to catch one. and yes, being the very kiasu, for both concerts, my friends and i got to stand like 2 rows from the stage. LUCKY MUCH? eheh.

things seem to be falling into place. I hope this is not the end of it. I just found out that I passed my Law Related to Pharmacy exam. well passing sounds easy to you people. blergh. but here's the thing, I went ape-shit with that exam coz there were so many shit to remember. 120 true/false questions. each correct answer = +1. wrong answer = -1. and the passing mark is 60%. so yes. i went a bit mental with that. but Alhamdulillah. all's good.

so I heard my remaining exam results will be out in 2 weeks time. hopefully, I did well enough.

Amin.

When the fun part starts...

It's like the greatest feeling ever. i swear.

I know I still have one more semester to go, but it feels good knowing that you are that much closer to finishing. it's like a race. eventhough a slow one, but you are trying your best to get to the finish line.

London was definitely a post-exam treat. like proper treat.

FOOD AND SHOPPING AND FRIENDS.

and yes, money.. gone like running water. but was worth every penny.

Now. I really miss those in London. argh. wish can have all of you here in Manchester.

Anyways, class has started, and so has netball training. First netball training was yesterday and we did a bit of fitness training for our stamina. 15 mins. that was the longest we could go. i guess exam fats really have a great effect on us. though, when we started playing, we were not as bad as we thought we would be. applause.

2nd semester timetable is not as pack as the 1st sem's. the more time for us to do our project write up i hope. i really hope to do well this semester.

ANYWAYS, THIS IS THE LATEST PIC OF MY NIECE, HAILIE DEANDRA.

now 8 1/2 months old.

don't ask me why her hair isn't growing much.

her parents refuse to shave her head.

i miss her.

Exam period

Alhamdulillah.

my final year 1st sem exam will be done in 2 days time.

I am much more relaxed now.

had exams today and the day before.

will be having exams tomorrow and the day after.

meaning, exams 4 days in a row.

I swear even now, I feel like a superwoman.

The ability to keep calm during exam period. now that's one thing that I constantly fail for the past few years.

but this year, I can't afford to do so.

My MPharm degree is on the line here and if I were to breakdown after each paper, then there's a chance of me failing the remaining papers, no?

People are like.. omg. kesian nye 4 papers in a row. omg how are you gonna do it? omg salute. omg 3 papers in a row and i'm already going nuts about it. argh.

OMG PEOPLE! have some sense of optimism puhlease!

it is shit. but what the heck, it's better to say you can do it rather than being all pessimistic.

Thank God. 4 papers down. 2 more to go.

and my sanity is still intact.

Papers were tough. but I can't afford to mourn over each of them.

no.

focus on the next one. and the next one. and the next one.

so yeh.. just a little story there for you people.

plans have been made for post exam celebration!

will be going to London. and no.. not going clubbing or partying whatsoever.

i have passed that time. only been clubbing once since starting of the final year in Sept.

Would prefer not to club til the end of my degree.. hmm.. some events are just tempting. just saying. eheh.

what the heck.

OK so London means:

Nadia

Iqa

Neng

Izzah

Food

Gossip

Pure relaxation.

Bliss.

I CAN'T WAIT!

Reality Check

5 more days in Malaysia.

5 more days of heaven on Earth.

then.. go back to reality.

Exam period is the time when you get all stressed up.

You may not say it, but the only thing on your mind is getting through the exams and hopefully pass with flying colours.

Sometimes, I wished I could go back to when I was in secondary school, when life was pretty easy. I was stressed a bit with SPM but that's just it you know.

now at 22, I have to think about making sure that I MUST get my degree in July and I MUST atleast get a second upper class. First class is not impossible, but it's a bit too tough. my brain capacity may not allow me to do so.

so yes, I am super anxious. it's a different kind of anxiety. the past years, I could say to myself, if I don't pass this, then I'll have a second chance. just do the re-take.

but now.. if I don't pass this, means I have to retake, but graduating in December rather than July. and of course, suffer the consequences of getting mad at by my parents. aiyoo.

scary ok.

i'm just gonna do my best. i have been studying. but i always feel it's not enough.

there's so much that this brain can take.

so, i can only pray for my final 5 months as an MPharm undergraduate student to go as smoothly as possible.

Bismillah.

All the best to everyone going through the stress of exams.

2012.

2011.

No doubt another great year.

owh yeh shit happened too but somewhat negligible.

a lot of good things. a lot of blessings in disguise.

i'm very blessed.

2012 marks the year of me leaving my student life for good.

i'm anxious+excited to see what working life has to offer.

but then again, leaving my student life and the life in UK that I built for 5 years, now that's tough shit.

I'm pretty sure I will be sad as hell.

However, life has to move on and in a way, I'm kinda glad that I'll be back in Malaysia for good.

so 2012. I welcome you with open arms.

Happy New Year everyone!

The Weight Issue

omagad! that's like triple of the old Mischa.

A healthier looking J Hudson.

Throughout my 22 years of life, I don't remember a single moment where I was overweight or obese. I had always been skinny. When I just came into KTJ at form 4, my weight was only 45kg with the height of 5' 6". yes, i was dead skinny. the nickname given was SKELETON. However, I was skinny due to my very high metabolic rate. Some girls in KTJ actually starved themselves to be as skinny as me, and I can never understand how being skinny is attractive. I have always been a big eater, with massive consumption of carbs in my daily diet. I can actually eat like a man. heck, I can even eat more than some guys that I know.

When I started college in Cambridge, I started gaining weight, but very slowly. I came to about 52kg. I looked much healthier. and I enjoy buying clothes even more coz I can actually fit into size 8. I used to be a size 6, and some stores don't actually have that size.

My target weight is 60kg. so up til last summer, i was already 58kg.

i recently checked my weight...

and i'm now 62kg!

I don't know where that 62kg came from, but i'm assuming it is due to the massive amount of food consumption and probably muscle weight from all those intensive netball trainings.

I'm very much happy with my weight now, though.. I realise that it is time to maintain rather than gaining. which is tough coz all my life, my goal was to gain weight.

So, does this mean.. decreasing my food consumption and regular exercise?

anyways, i'm a size 10 now. i can still my old clothes, but u know la. sendat sana sini. perut terkuar and shit like that.not funny.

whatever it is, I think staying healthy is the main thing here. mind you, I get annoyed when HEALTHY LOOKING girls say they look fat and want to lose weight. I can understand perfectly when a fat girl says i need to lose weight, and my response to that would be, that's good coz u should. no, I say this not for her to be accepted by the public, but for her own good health. and you skinny bitches out there, stop wanting to lose weight coz if being called skeleton is what you want, then I have nothing to say to that! and stop scrutinising at every detail of your body.. coz it gets worse everytime you do it. and by doing that you're just deteriorating your self-esteem.

*LOVES*

Highlights of 4th year so far

MSSM AGM 2011

The 4th and last Detention party (it's an annual event)
The Manchester Malaysian Netballers 2011/2012
Dublin Games
and we won our FIRST GOLD MEDALS!
The four awesomeness
Just a happy face! =D

*LOVES*