Go On Girl

FYI, the title is actually a song by Ne-Yo. i'm addicted to that song!

so my V Day was not spent by having a romantic day out with some hot guy (I WISH) but just a girly day out which turned out to be fun fun fun! =) FYI, everywhere in Manchester was like having Valentine's fever . urghhh.. the shops n all. no wonder single people feel depressed here. lol. i would have to say, Valentine's here is sooo sooo sooo overrated.

owh wait.. rewind. on Valentine's eve, my friends and i decided to go to this Valentine's party organised by the Chinese, Malaysian, Singaporean and Korean societies.FYI, i managed to make 2 of my friends go clubbing for the first time. bad influence? NOT! it was held at this club called the Circle. apparently the club was said to be exclusive but i have to say it was shit. club was so small and the music was shit. and it was a very typical Chinese party that only a handful of ppl danced and i dont know have a clue wat 3/4 of the people on the dance floor were doin. typical typical. they need to get tipsy to dance. u people suck. i would say, goin to a club full of Indians, Blacks, or Whites is better coz atleast they move to the beat. lol. anyway, made a new friend! my friend, Azri from Liverpool brought his friend, Arif and that guy was such a cutie! very metrosexual-ish and yet doesn't look gay-ish. and he knows how to dance very very well. and so does Azri. well Aina has been telling me, "Annis, go for Azri. I like him. he's sweet." ok Aina. i'm one of those people who cant get guys just like snapping my finger. he's a nice friend btw.

anyway, moving on to what i did on V Day. went out with Francesca and we did a bit of retail therapy. omg. i think i have a problem. i can't seem to say no to shopping nowadays. what's got into me???!!! but seriously, shopping in Manchester is like heaven! it's like Oxford St in London. seriously. so.. Francesca and I went to TK Maxx and we picked out 10 dresses altogether and tried them on. some of the dresses didnt fit us well. on the tags, the size was 6 or 8 but actually i think they were 10 or 12. damnnn... anyway, Francesca has a shopaholic prob as well. so i said to her, "since we're a bit broke, we're gonna try all these dresses, but we're gonna buy only one that fits us the best." so yeh.. the rest of the day, we hang out at Cafe Nero then made a quick pit stop at Primark and we friggin shopped again, but this time, for underwear. seriously, there were so many choices and they were all friggin cheap. we went a bit crazy. lol.

anyway, i saw his Facebook again last night. yes, call me pathetic but i juz wanna know if they're together. i think they are and he gave her a bouquet of roses for Valentine's, which he had never given to me when we were together. i swear that was the last straw for me. i talked to Aina about it. Aina was pretty angry at me. she said to me, "it's been months that u said u dont wanna think about him, but actually u juz can't let go". Aina has been listening to me all the time, and last night she made me realise how pathetic and stupid i was. that's Aina, she can just be frank and say anything to anyone eventhough it may hurt. i wasnt hurt by what she said to me, coz it was true. so Aina said, "u can't keep on stalking him on Facebook. just delete him now." i didnt want to at first coz if he knows that i delete him, he would think that i'm not over him coz all this while, only the closest people to me know. even my close friends in Cambs think i'm over him. but i did it anyway. i deleted him off my Facebook and MSN. i can't stand having to look at his status and personal message. i think i had enough. Iqa told me long time ago to delete him, but i didn't listen to her coz i said when we broke up, we said we remain as friends. i should have listen to u, Iqa coz he and i were never friends since the day we ended it.

i'm gonna make it clear to u all why i have been angry with him when he started dating again. i broke up with him so that he can have his space to focus on his A Level and getting into medic skool coz he said thats the reason why he had less time to talk to me on the phone or even visit me once in awhile. knowing him, he cant juggle many things at a time (quoting from his very own words). so now, as u can see, he hasn't finished his A Level and he hasn't even got into his medic skool, and now he's chasing after another girl and probably is in a relationship with her now, how does that make u (if u were in my position) feel? i felt that all those medic and a level shits excuses were just excuses to just end it. he lied. that's the thing i cant except. he lied to me. even if he's not, i think i deserve an explanation. i think i have totally cut him off my life now. i'm glad now.

*LOVES*