Wednesday, 15 April 2009

Is it too much if i say that I wanna cry because of the M Nite?

when i do something, especially when a few people persuaded me to do it and i myself think i'm not very capable of doing it, i'd try my best to do it whole-heartedly and 100% commitment. plus, when it's a big event, i'd definitely give my all. i don't have that "ahh.. bantai je la" shit attitude, especially when i'm putting my face on the line.

i am not going to talk shit about anybody but this is gonna be a major bitch fit for everyone who is involved in the Malaysian Night ok. i'm so pissed off and all i can do is bitch.

OK. first thing's first. i wouldn't agree to be the main cast of this year's m night if not atleast 10 people wanted and believed that i could do it. i have no experience in acting on stage or whatsoever so obviously, taking the role would mean suicide, literally.

so i took the challenge. and i practised hard, during practices with the directors and on my own. i tried to come for every practice. tried to be there on time. for me, i've given atleast 90% commitment.

up to this point, i'm pretty much convinced that i can put up a good act on the night, but as u can see, it's called Malaysian Night, not Annis' Night. so the night reflects on the effort done by everyone, no?

people said to me, juz worry bout ur acting. i can't.

at the rehearsal today, all i wanted to do was to break down and cry. but i controlled myself. a few people asked me whats wrong and all i could say was "everything's a mess" and i held back my tears.

really, by now, EVERYONE should be giving 110% commitment. it's a fucking big night. the tickets are almost sold out. 600 people coming, not 60 ok. why can't all of you feel that this is fucking important?


i feel really sorry for the MSSM committee members. as stress as i am, i bet the stress is 10x more for them. i can understand why they are not being too pushy coz some people might just leave the production if the any of the committee members snaps at them.

i may be hormonal as well coz it's my first day period. but i was never hormonal when i get my period before this. hish.

i'm tired. 10am practice tomorrow. but i suppose even if i come at 10, the practice will start at 11 or 12. i'm tired of giving my all when others don't seem to.

4 comments:

  1. annis..
    same shit happens to me everytime i'm assigned a "group" work...

    it sucks on ice, doesnt it...

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  2. i know how frustrating it is. hold on babe. sikit je lg. cheer up k? :)

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  3. maliq: yeh... pretty much. it's even harder when it's in a big group. if only a few people give their all, that's actually not enough. we need everyone to give their 100% commitment. haihhhh...

    shera: yeh... i know babe. juz holding on to 2 more days and i'll be done. =)

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  4. we cant expect others to be as enthusiastic as us, but we can show how.. maybe when u feel as if diorg buat cm crap gle, u cud show them how they shud hv done it..kan? just hv fun.. isnt it supposed to be fun? dont let others destroy ur moment.. senyum sket annis :) hehehe

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